carolynandlatte
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Guess that says it all! Or, maybe not...
Its been an interesting 2 weeks....fragmented to no sleep, data gathering, increasing/ decreasing doses, seeing highs and lows we have never seen before, surfing nearly every level, wacked out ps numbers, etc. In the end we have come nearly full circle, landing pretty much on the same dose as we started, bordering on both a decrease and increase at the same time.
Her vet said something to me the other day about how a cat with higher numbers and risk of infection a few times/year is a lot better than a cat not eating, vomiting, and losing weight. . Last night as I was about to go to bed, after offering some wet food and refusing, she went and stood by her kibble bowl. Apparently waiting for me to throw a treat in there. I ignored her because I didnt want to encourage the kibble, especially with such high numbers last night. Then what the vet said to me rang loudly in my ears. How many nights in the last few years have I sat in bed with the light out waiting sometimes up to an hour to hear her munch on the kibble? And then when she wouldnt I would have to get up and prepare food/syringes at 1am? How many nights did I cry myself to sleep wishing she would eat and knowing she would vomit in the a.m. due to no food in her tummy? How many mornings did I wake, fearful of what the day would bring? Too many! So, if she is ASKING to eat, even something that is going to deter any progress with her BG's, then that is a HUGE improvement in quality of life for her.
I have already come to terms that insulin will be part of the rest of her life. Today, its time to come to terms with the fact that we may not even see good BG's for the rest of her life. Sure, there will be crazy days going from extremes like she pulled over the weekend, or during the full moon. Generally speaking I get a sense that this is the best we are going to get. BUT...she is eating, not vomiting (so much), and looking a little tubby :mrgreen: Despite all her issues and seeming to be showing her age a bit more, she appears to be very happy most of the time. In the entire scheme of things, I dont know how I could ask for much more.
I almost wonder if these two weeks was more about teaching me acceptance rather than getting Latte's BGs in a better spot. Acceptance that there are trade offs in all the choices we make, and nothing can be perfect.
She is a happy cat this a.m., eating and drinking a lot - possibly signaling a drop, possibly signaling a cat that just feels darn good! ;-) Whatever the reason, its good to see her happy.
yesterday:
viewtopic.php?f=9&t=999
Guess that says it all! Or, maybe not...
Its been an interesting 2 weeks....fragmented to no sleep, data gathering, increasing/ decreasing doses, seeing highs and lows we have never seen before, surfing nearly every level, wacked out ps numbers, etc. In the end we have come nearly full circle, landing pretty much on the same dose as we started, bordering on both a decrease and increase at the same time.
Her vet said something to me the other day about how a cat with higher numbers and risk of infection a few times/year is a lot better than a cat not eating, vomiting, and losing weight. . Last night as I was about to go to bed, after offering some wet food and refusing, she went and stood by her kibble bowl. Apparently waiting for me to throw a treat in there. I ignored her because I didnt want to encourage the kibble, especially with such high numbers last night. Then what the vet said to me rang loudly in my ears. How many nights in the last few years have I sat in bed with the light out waiting sometimes up to an hour to hear her munch on the kibble? And then when she wouldnt I would have to get up and prepare food/syringes at 1am? How many nights did I cry myself to sleep wishing she would eat and knowing she would vomit in the a.m. due to no food in her tummy? How many mornings did I wake, fearful of what the day would bring? Too many! So, if she is ASKING to eat, even something that is going to deter any progress with her BG's, then that is a HUGE improvement in quality of life for her.
I have already come to terms that insulin will be part of the rest of her life. Today, its time to come to terms with the fact that we may not even see good BG's for the rest of her life. Sure, there will be crazy days going from extremes like she pulled over the weekend, or during the full moon. Generally speaking I get a sense that this is the best we are going to get. BUT...she is eating, not vomiting (so much), and looking a little tubby :mrgreen: Despite all her issues and seeming to be showing her age a bit more, she appears to be very happy most of the time. In the entire scheme of things, I dont know how I could ask for much more.
I almost wonder if these two weeks was more about teaching me acceptance rather than getting Latte's BGs in a better spot. Acceptance that there are trade offs in all the choices we make, and nothing can be perfect.
She is a happy cat this a.m., eating and drinking a lot - possibly signaling a drop, possibly signaling a cat that just feels darn good! ;-) Whatever the reason, its good to see her happy.
yesterday:
viewtopic.php?f=9&t=999
