03/12 Chaos PMPS 384

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Violet and Chaos

Violet and Chaos

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yesterday: viewtopic.php?f=9&t=38661

*yawn* good morning, everyone!

We are bouncing again. 336 at AMPS, when he had a lovely 82 at +5 last night. This is so frustrating. It is to me, anyway. Chaos doesn't mind, not that I can see. I miss waking up naturally, not to an alarm. Right now I miss it to the point where I could just cry. DH does not help me with Chaos; I have not slept in for over a year except for three mornings last July when we went on a trip... I know, I'm whining and I'll stop now. I should be thrilled to be alive. DH may not help with Chaos, but he is amazingly supportive. (warning: OT ramble ahead) I have more or less decided to follow my passion for baking instead of taking another lousy office job. It's going to be hard, and it could take years before I get anywhere, but I have his support and a chance to try. I think it's pretty much a 'decision' now... scary! Chaos likes the idea since it means I work at home for now, instead of going to TBP every day. Most people would think it's insane that my cat had some influence in this decision making process, but I knew my LL friends would understand. :lol:

I hope all you beans and kitties have a wonderful Caturday!
 
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Good morning guys .. Sorry to see the bounce this morning, but you know there was a green behind it, so at least you know it was called for .. There were days at a time mocha would be pink and trust me, it wasn't cause there was a green behind it! But I know this is frustrating, and I know what it's like to cry over simple things like just being able to get up and leave the house without worrying you will come back and find your cat hypo-ing, or just to be able to sleep in ...We all know what that is like on this site, so this is the best place to vent your feelings .. and as far as your "decision" goes, I think it's great! I love to bake and decorate cakes .. Have a great day guys!
 
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Morning guys! sorry for the bounce (nice cycle last night!!) - been there more times than I can count - and can so relate to the never being able to sleep in... been 3 years for us. I have long forgotten what a sleep in is. :lol: and the frustration?? bold type that with a capital F. And the never being able to be gone for longer than 12 hours?? bye bye all those long distance hikes that i love... I too know all my LL friends would understand, know the feelings and let one vent whenever any of us need to so.... vent away - we all understand.

Kudos to you for your career decision! excellent. It is so great to read about someone who will pursue what they love doing. Nice too that your DH is supportive. :cool: :cool: I wish you the best of luck.
 
Re: 03/12 Chaos AMPS 336, +5 126

Thanks for understanding, guys. When I think about it, I realize that I'm probably not the first one in LL to get a little frustrated. Or a lot.. :lol: Sometimes, I'll say the stupidest things... like telling DH I'd like to go somewhere for a weekend before reality hits and I remember that I can't. I know he wants that freedom for both of us, but that's just not what life handed me. Thank goodness Chaos is who he is. If he didn't love me back I don't think I could keep up with the sugar dance.

Chaos is showing me what he's made of today. He's down to 126 at +5, which is better than I expected from him in light of his AMPS. Good boy! I think the dose increase is helping. We'll see how it goes. In the meantime, I'm going to practice buttercream flowers until I'm sick of it, and then do it some more.
 
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I'm glad Chaos decided to come down some today. I totally understand your frustration about always having to wake to an alarm. I so miss not having to hear an alarm go off on the weekends and I have only been doing this for a few months! I know my family and friends think I am absolutely crazy to be living my life around Simon, but at least on LL, everyone understands. If I even say two words about my cats, I see the eyes glaze over and the subject changed. I really don't talk about it that much (except of course to my DH who is very supportive)!

I love that you are going to pursue your passion of baking. The pictures of your creations that you have posted in the past looked simply beautiful and I'm sure taste just as good as they look. You should find a way to ship your goodies to all of us on LL. We could be your best customers!
 
Re: 03/12 Chaos AMPS 336, +5 126

Oh Violet!!! You have echoed my thoughts exactly. I told Mike the other day what I wouldn't give to sleep in ONE DAY!! He does absolutely everything I do with Gracie but I can't ask him to stay up at night with him and then also get up and give her insulin, too, and then go to work and fly people around. So I always do the mornings. So many of us in FDMB have really had drastic changes to our lifestyles and it is hard and stressful so we, of all people, understand your need to vent. That's one reason why we support each other.

I think it is wonderful that you have decided to pursue your love of baking fulltime!! YOU GO!!! And nice drop for Chaos!
 
Re: 03/12 Chaos AMPS 336, +5 126

must be something in the air...I was grumbling at binks last night when i set the alarm that i'd like one day with no obligations...
he just yawned and went back to sleep :lol:
 
Celi, I do believe we are all suffering from sleep-in withdrawal. Let's blame it on the moon!

Chaos's PMPS is 384, not so hot, but hey....bounces. At least his nadir was fairly decent today.
 
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That picture is hilarious!

((((((Violet)))))))) Some days you just need to have a little pity party. And then you'll feel better and be grateful that Chaos is still with you to give him his daily shots. Blah days do happen, and part of it is sleep deprivation and being a caretaker. I wish your DH was more dependable/participatory in taking care of Chaos so you could sleep in. I wish we were all closer. We'd all be helping each other on days like these.

In the back of my mind I'm thinking about how parents manage human children. I don't know how they do it.

I admire you committing to baking and doing something you love. You have a talent. And you get to be home with your boy. Sweet! Best of luck Violet!!!!!!!
 
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