8/13 Mikan AMPS 276, +2 221, +4 189, +7 219: PMPS 312, +2.5 191, +3.5 100

Diane Tyler's Mom said:
I see she's back to blue tonight :bighug::bighug::bighug::cat:
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This waiting game is just so hard, Diane!
I know she is still in the bounce from the very low she got a few days ago.
For a while though, it looked like she was moving ahead, and then, she is completely staggering now.
A huge cloud of self doubt is floating above my head....
Patience, patience. But I can't find my pants!
 
Mikanmama said:
Thanks Diane.

It's hard not to get discouraged - Mikan has not been this bad for a long time. She is not even getting to low blues.
I'll see how she does tomorrow - one day at a time.
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Know it's hard not to get discouraged, I agree with what Deb said above , I had to keep raising Tyler's dose a lot before he started to show me consistent numbers , sending you lots of hugs:bighug::cat::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
@Mikanmama
 
Thanks @Deb and Sylvester and @Diane Tyler's Mom!
She is doing a bit better, now she is 100 at+3.5. Maybe she is breaking whatever the spell she was under :nailbiting:
I want to tell you both how much your support means to me. I was just so down and depressed with how Mikan has been doing in the past 6 cycles. It just feels like forever!
I am eternally grateful for the kindness you give out so generously.
Love you both :kiss: Mikan and I shall keep on trying!
 
Mikanmama said:
Thanks @Deb and Sylvester and @Diane Tyler's Mom!
She is doing a bit better, now she is 100 at+3.5. Maybe she is breaking whatever the spell she was under :nailbiting:
I want to tell you both how much your support means to me. I was just so down and depressed with how Mikan has been doing in the past 6 cycles. It just feels like forever!
I am eternally grateful for the kindness you give out so generously.
Love you both :kiss: Mikan and I shall keep on trying!
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Aww we love you too! ♥. Great to see she's coming down, just keep on truckin Kit , and Mikan be kind to your mama ,I don't like to see her down and depressed .
Do I have to come from Jersey to wheteever you live and give you a good taking to :p
because I will . Keep your chin up Kit :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
@Mikanmama
 
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Mikanmama said:
Oh Diane, you are such a lovely person! :kiss:
You gave me so much strength!
Mikan's continuing her flat dance but I feel stronger in dealing with it - thanks to you.
Let us see what tomorrow brings - but I am forever grateful for our friendship :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
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@Mikanmama
Oh Kit you are such a lovely person also :kiss:
I'm so glad we became good friends!
You are a strong person and don't you forget it.
We all love our kitties so much and always want the best for them.
Tyler got sick one time he had an Upper Respiratory Infection, I was like a crazy person. He was in remission at the time and his numbers started to go up
My vet put him on an antibiotic and once they started to kick in his numbers were back to normal. Everyone here told me not to panic and give the antibiotic a chance to work. They all calmed me down .
Our kitties are like our children and people that don't have pets just don't understand why we get upset when something happens to them.
I see Mikan gave you a blue already tonight, I hope she continues with them for the rest of the night.
When I lost Tyler's brother almost 4 years ago to kidney disease it just killed me.
I adopted both of them when they were kittens
Funny thing was I only wanted Tyler , I saw him on a site called Angels for Animals

They were being shown at Petco with other kitties
When me and Ashley got there , Perry was in the cage with him.
The lady said oh please take them both.
Ashley said come on mom .
I held Perry and that was it I took them both
Out of all the cats that I have owned Perry was the only one that was my heart kitty
He would sit in his cat napper the kind you hook onto the window will and just rub my face , kiss it all over.
Ashley would say Oh my God he's sickening lol
When I found out he had kidney disease I did everything I could for him
Phosphate Binder, Fluids, another med for Anemia ,I think it was called Epigen
The last 2 days before he was do for more blood work he was just laying on the kitchen chair ,didn't want to eat,so I knew it wasn't good

I brought him in and my vet came out and told me his numbers were so bad ,everything was . He was the first cat that I went in and held him when they put him to sleep. He was 12 years old.
Anyway I'm so glad I adopted him also because who knows another family might have just put him to sleep as soon as they found out he had kidney disease
He had it for about 5 years before he passed
Even when I gave him fluids he would just lay there and purr and turn his head around and look at me with such love in is eyes

I know sooner or later Mikan will start to give you nice blue and green numbers consistently, you just haven't hit the exact dose yet.
Remember what I said in the beginning I had to keep raising Tyler's dose and then all of a sudden Bingo!

Here's a picture of Perry, he was a sweetheart, a cuddler, Tyler is the complete opposite ,he's a loner. After he eats ,he'll go off and sleep. He might lay in the bed with me but not for very long.
He'll let me kiss him at least lol
Perry was much smaller than Tyler but let me tell you he could beat Tyler up if I let him lol
I was so mad that Tyler didn't even care when Perry was gone.
I would say to him you don't even miss your brother you brat lol
I love Tyler like crazy but Perry was mine .
Me and Ashley need them after our favorite rock band Aerosmith
Steven Tyler and Joe Perry .

I've been having a lot of bad days missing Ashley. I still can't believe she's gone
It will be 2 months already on the 15th of this month
Oh I just now realized that's tomorrow. Then my dad passing on 7-11 of this year .
I think I'll get a part time job around Oct just to keep busy
The nights are the worst.
I go to my sister's a lot she's only 5 minutes away
My brother is about 40 minutes away.
Anyway I'll check in tomorrow with you my friend
Give Mikan kisses for me :bighug::bighug::cat:

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@Diane Tyler's Mom

All your cats, all our cats, and all of us, are so lucky to have you here as a friend (and a partner in crime, hee hee)!
Thank you for being you, Diane!

What a gorgeous kitty! Perry looks so content and I love this cat-self-confident, "I'm the best" look :)
Yes, my kitties are my babies too. Their pain is my pain. Every time I lose one, a part of me goes with the kitty.
And I have learned that pain really never goes away. Time does blunts it a bit, but it's always there.

You've had such painful losses lately. The wound is still raw and deep.
There is no word that can make it go away, but please know that we all love you.
Please know that your kindness, your wit, and your sincerity means a lot, a huge lot, to us going through this madness called FD!
None of us can get through this, I certainly wouldn't be able to.
Thank you thank you thank you, Diane!

I'll be thinking of you.
Praying that your days and nights get a little less painful.

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Mikanmama said:
@Diane Tyler's Mom

All your cats, all our cats, and all of us, are so lucky to have you here as a friend (and a partner in crime, hee hee)!
Thank you for being you, Diane!

What a gorgeous kitty! Perry looks so content and I love this cat-self-confident, "I'm the best" look :)
Yes, my kitties are my babies too. Their pain is my pain. Every time I lose one, a part of me goes with the kitty.
And I have learned that pain really never goes away. Time does blunts it a bit, but it's always there.

You've had such painful losses lately. The wound is still raw and deep.
There is no word that can make it go away, but please know that we all love you.
Please know that your kindness, your wit, and your sincerity means a lot, a huge lot, to us going through this madness called FD!
None of us can get through this, I certainly wouldn't be able to.
Thank you thank you thank you, Diane!

I'll be thinking of you.
Praying that your days and nights get a little less painful.

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Aww thank you so much Kit, I always said that if Tyler ever went into remission I would never leave the group. I would always pay if forward.
I just can't stay away lol
I'm always wondering how all the kitties are doing.
I'm still waiting to dream of Ashley and my dad, haven't had one yet
My sister had a dream about Ashley 3 days after she passed , she told me she saw Ashley in her dream and Ashley said Aunt Cheryl I'm OK. That was all she said
Then one day my sister has theses shelves that are on each side of her kitchen cabinets above her sink
She keeps her Vitamin bottles there , there was also a dime there , it wasn't even close to the edge of the shelf where it could fall off
So anyway she didn't touch those bottles at all , my sister was cutting up food at her counter that was across from the sink and all of a sudden she years something hit the kitchen sink, she looks over and there was the dime laying there.

She said to me that she hadn't touched those bottles of vitamins at all.
It freaked her out, mind you my sister really doesn't believe in signs from people that have passed.

I have been seeing Cardinals in front of my apartment on and off ,who knows if all of this is true.
Don't know if I told you but Ashley left me the most beautiful letter, I have read it twice so far and cry every darn time.
She was such a good ,loving ,funny as hell daughter.
She was my dad's favorite grandchild, the first one also
Ashley would also make his birthday special for him.
She would decorate our kitchen with birthday banners, balloons, and always bake him a cake.
My dad would say what's so happy about it I'm a year older lol
He was some character. He was this touch guy from Newark N.J.
Then to see him get so suck with the Alzheimer's just got me sick to my stomach.

He was like Ashley's dad, my husband died when he was 51 years old, would have been 67 now like me , how the hell did that happen lol, don't say you're sorry because I'll be honest with you ,if he was still alive I'd kill him .
I don't feel 67at all , oh I just hate saying that age, I'm still extremely active and in my head I feel like I'm in my 40's or 50's my health is good so that's a plus ha ha
I just have A-Fib but that's been under control for many many years with meds

He liked to drink, was a roofer , never abused us but was selfish, I'd have to say immature also.
Never helped me with things, I'm I'm the idiot that stayed married to him.
I think if I didn't have Ashley I would have left him.
I know my parents would have taken me and Ashley in but I was an idiot to stay
It wasn't bad all the time , he wasn't a go getter like me when it came to working.

You are going to think I'm a nut job but I'm not lol
I have his ashes here yet, I feel like going down to the Meadowlands , here in N.J. the Meadowlands is a site where there are just all tall bushes and weeds , stuff like that
I feel like going there and pouring his ashes there and that's that
I'll probably go to hell if I do that lol ,but I don't care.

At least Ashley got to see my dad 3 times in the nursing home when he still knew who we all were . It was months before we were allowed to visit because that's when covid started.
When they saw each other for the first time oh my God they were both so so happy.
I think if she ever saw him the way he got she would have gone crazy.
He was her whole life

Sorry to keep babbling on and on , it's 8 AM and I need coffee, Tyler woke me up again at 5:30 .
I haven't checked on all the kitties yet, need my coffee first
Thanks for letting me chew your ear off .
We Italians never stop talking :p:p
Talk to you later
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Would you mind telling me what state you live in, you don't have to ,I was just curious
 
I'm going to get my first tattoo , It will be in Ashley's signature and the lady bug will be made smaller. My mom and Ashley loved lady bugs, going to get it on the 25th of this month
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Diane :bighug::bighug::bighug: I see you've been through a lot.
You know, you are such a caring person. Unfortunately, the more you care, the more you hurt.
That's really unfair, but I've seen that happen a lot.

I live in Salt Lake City, Utah. I'm not a native here - a transplant from Seattle WA about 20 years ago.
It's a beautiful place and easy to get around (Seattle traffic is notoriously awful!). It does get super hot in the summer and could have a lot of snow and bad inversion air in the winter, but I like it here. I love the mountains (although I miss ocean....). Well, you can't have everything, right?

Ladybugs are so cute. Nice thought to have Ashley's sig with one - take a pic and post it when you get that done!
Don't worry about chewing my ear off - I've got a pair of strong ones!

Hope you got a good dose of coffee - I think I am going to need another myself for a mid morning pick me up! :p Talk to you soon!
 
Hi Kit Salt Lake City sounds like a beautiful place especially the mountains
I haven't been down the shore in ages.
I would go to Wildwood Crest in N.J. The Beach beaches were beautiful and the sand was just like Florida sand. You could sometimes walk out far to a sand bank.
The boardwalk was amazing , the rides, the games and the food
I had 2 cups of coffee with my favorite creamer International Delight Pumpkin Pie Spice, I just love it. Southern Butter Pecan is another favorite of mine
I live minutes away from Giant Stadium , Met Life where they have all the concerts
and the new giant Mall they built called American Dream
Haven't been and don't intend to go.
I haven't been to a mall in ages
I'll stay local like TJ Max, Home Goods, Kohls and Walmart
I'm really not a shopper , just go get what I need and that's it
Let me go for now Tyler is up in the bed pawing at me for food and won't shut up lol
Will check in later :bighug::bighug::cat:
 
Hi Diane,

I can't tell you how much I miss the ocean. The sound, the smell. The hypnotic rhythm.
But I live in the area where we can hike up a short distance and can see the valley. In a nice day, you can see the Salt Lake afar.
I'm never a wilderness girl, but I do appreciate nature!
I don't know much about NJ but sounds like you have an nice access to beaches and nice shops!
Little life pleasures like these are so precious. Nice to have things we can appreciate around us.

Hope Tyler got all he wanted to satiate himself :smuggrin:
Mikan's at least came down to the mid blue. You know I worry about her not moving forward but like you say, patience!
Have a nice evening. I'll talk to you tomorrow.
 
I love to go hiking, we have a lot of nice places here in N.J. that have nice trails.
Don't you just love listening to the waves. Did I tell you a couple of weeks ago me, my sister and nephew went crabbing. I had a nice time.
We caught 17 nice size crabs
My sister made the sauce and I ate all the crabs lol
They just had the spaghetti with the sauce.
They were so sweet.
You really have to work at getting the meat out, that's why they don't eat them
More for me :p
Will go again in Sept.
Also we plan to go to the Bronx Zoo , it's humungus , so many animals too see.
Takes about 3 hours to see everything.
Will go in Sept when it's cooler.
There are so many nice places to go and see in N.J.
You should see some of the mansions here , not by me , you have to be rich where they live.
The houses are gorgeous.
When I was a kid we lived in Florida, moved to N.J. when I was in the 3rd grade
Nice blues tonight , good girl Mikan
Did you ever watch The Sopranos, they filmed some scenes here in my town
One movie they filmed at one of our diners
Well I'll talk to you tomorrow , going to watch some tv now.:bighug::cat:
 
17 crabs! That's so awesome.
Sounds like a lot of fun things out there and you have some nice plans to enjoy yourself.
I haven't watched the Sopranos. Exciting to see a show filmed in your own town!

Busy day ahead for me - work and chores all piled up for me :rolleyes:
At least I slept really well last night. I'll have some coffee now and get moving! :coffee::coffee::coffee::coffee:
 
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