GA Thanks to everyone who helped us

[HelenR]

As some of you have seen on the other thread, Footfoot died on Friday morning, from heart disease. Our diabetes journey was short - we never finished her first bottle of Prozinc, she was only diagnosed in September. But now it's all over and I'm quite devastated, not least by guilt, because I had no way to end her suffering in her last few hours. Of course I'm now tortured by hindsight, and when I have another cat again, one day, I will be better prepared. Anyway, I don't want to talk about all of that just now, it's still too raw.

I just wanted to say a huge thank you to those of you who helped us so much with dealing with Footfoot's diabetes. @FrostD , @Shelley & Jess , @Suzanne & Darcy , @Diane Tyler's Mom , @Hendrick Cuddleclaw and anyone else who chipped in to help.
Particularly huge thanks to @FrostD and @Shelley & Jess for being there so often to answer panicky questions, you were so very kind and helpful. I'm full of admiration for your dedication to this forum.

I'm sending all my testing kit to a cat rescue centre, and I've found some local people to take other bits and pieces, including the rest of Footfoot's Prozinc.

Very best wishes to you all,

Helen

 

[Hendrick Cuddleclaw]

So sorry for your loss @HelenR

As far as I can tell, you did everything you could. She is free now from all the pain and suffering chasing butterflies and leaves.

 

[Noah & me (GA)]

Helen, guilt is for people who kick dogs and don't care for cats. Footfoot knew you loved her and did the very best you could, she would not want you to feel this way.
I have felt undeserved guilt in the past and it's an awful burden that you honestly don't deserve. Please be kind to yourself and know someday another paw will reach out to you because cats choose us for who we are.
We are defined by who we are in our hearts and who we choose to be on this Earth

 

[Howiesmom]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I am sure her crossing of the bridge was welcomed by so many of our other fur family from this forum. Please remember you were the best cat mommy you could be. No one is ever prepared on how to handle these significant ailments and your FootFoot knows you did your very best. Big hugs to you and your family.

 

[Suzanne & Darcy]

Oh Helen. I did not see this about your beautiful Footfoot. I am really really sad about this. Wow. I just don't know what to say. The guilt is natural and, I believe, part of the grieving process. I've never lost a cat where I didn't have guilt and go over in my mind many of the things that I either did or did not do and how things turned out. I also tend to replay in my mind the last moments of my cat as well. I think of things that I "missed" by just not noticing things. I also think of what the vets did wrong (or may have done wrong.) I think I try to hold myself to some superhuman standard, which is ridiculous. I guess I just wish I could have done more and better for my cats. I'm so sorry that you have lost her and that you are going through this grief and separation. You have my greatest sympathy.

 

[Veronica & Babu-chiri]

I'm so sorry for your loss and I understand you too well, just keep in mind that in the end all that matters is that you loved her and she knew and loved you back, everything else that happened is not really important

 

[Bron and Sheba (GA)]

Helen, I am so sorry to hear that Footfoot has gone to the rainbow bridge.
You did everything you could for her and she knew you loved her.
It is always devastating to lose out beautiful kitties.
Fly free beautiful Footfoot

 

[HelenR]

Oh Helen. I did not see this about your beautiful Footfoot. I am really really sad about this. Wow. I just don't know what to say. The guilt is natural and, I believe, part of the grieving process. I've never lost a cat where I didn't have guilt and go over in my mind many of the things that I either did or did not do and how things turned out. I also tend to replay in my mind the last moments of my cat as well. I think of things that I "missed" by just not noticing things. I also think of what the vets did wrong (or may have done wrong.) I think I try to hold myself to some superhuman standard, which is ridiculous. I guess I just wish I could have done more and better for my cats. I'm so sorry that you have lost her and that you are going through this grief and separation. You have my greatest sympathy.

Oh gosh, Suzanne, you sound exactly like me. I've been trying to hard to blot out memories of her last moments, it was SO awful and I don't want those memories to torture me. I've been distracting myself with learning a new design software, watching movies on Netflix, anything, and trying to immediately think of something else when those thoughts come. Yes, I do feel terrible guilt, I wasn't on top of things, due to so much going on in my life at the moment. It's so much easier to see in retrospect what I should have done differently. But, that's life, isn't it? :-/

 

[Suzanne & Darcy]

Oh gosh, Suzanne, you sound exactly like me. I've been trying to hard to blot out memories of her last moments, it was SO awful and I don't want those memories to torture me. I've been distracting myself with learning a new design software, watching movies on Netflix, anything, and trying to immediately think of something else when those thoughts come. Yes, I do feel terrible guilt, I wasn't on top of things, due to so much going on in my life at the moment. It's so much easier to see in retrospect what I should have done differently. But, that's life, isn't it? :-/

Many hugs to you. It’s so true. If we knew what was going to happen ahead of time, we would have made different decisions. If we look back and analyze every symptom or change in behavior, we would have done things differently. If only we had known that we should not wait. We kept trying the same things… we thought kitty just needed a little more time. But we can’t know everything and sometimes vets don’t help either.

 

[Diane Tyler's Mom GA]

@HelenR
Oh Helen my heart goes out to you. You were the best mom Footfoot could have ever asked for. She knew that you loved her ! We all do the very best we can for our furbabies. I lost Tyler's brother 2 years ago to kidney disease , I try to always remember the good times we had, the adorable things he did and how much he loved me. I'm sure you knew how much Footfoot loved you.
Please be kind to yourself . ♥♥
Fly high pretty girl you will be missed but never forgotten

 

[chuckstables]

As some of you have seen on the other thread, Footfoot died on Friday morning, from heart disease. Our diabetes journey was short - we never finished her first bottle of Prozinc, she was only diagnosed in September. But now it's all over and I'm quite devastated, not least by guilt, because I had no way to end her suffering in her last few hours. Of course I'm now tortured by hindsight, and when I have another cat again, one day, I will be better prepared. Anyway, I don't want to talk about all of that just now, it's still too raw.

I just wanted to say a huge thank you to those of you who helped us so much with dealing with Footfoot's diabetes. @FrostD , @Shelley & Jess , @Suzanne & Darcy , @Diane Tyler's Mom , @Hendrick Cuddleclaw and anyone else who chipped in to help.
Particularly huge thanks to @FrostD and @Shelley & Jess for being there so often to answer panicky questions, you were so very kind and helpful. I'm full of admiration for your dedication to this forum.

I'm sending all my testing kit to a cat rescue centre, and I've found some local people to take other bits and pieces, including the rest of Footfoot's Prozinc.

Very best wishes to you all,

Helen

I am so sorry. I know I don't know you very well, but I know what it's like losing one of your little furbabies. You did everything you could've. The fact that you're here on this forum shows that.