Julie and Eleanor (GA)
Member Since 2012
I don't know if anyone will remember Eleanor, but even though we didn't post here often, FDMB was such an important part of her life, I felt I should let everyone know that she has passed away.
Eleanor had a hard time for years with pancreatitis, irregular bloodsugar, and "probable" IBD/"possible" lymphoma - I was not able to afford an ultrasound to try to pin that down.
The last years, her bg finally became steady and even flat most of the time sitting in 100's on a low dose of Lantus.
I knew something was wrong and that I was losing her beginning last Fall in spite of blood work and physicals that looked great.
In April she suddenly became very ill and was diagnosed with acute renal failure due to a severe infection. I did not have the $6000+ I was quoted for hospitalization, I can't forgive myself for that, I know how vital IV fluids were. I gave her sub q fluids at home, as well as a 4 week course of two different antibiotics. Eleanor improved greatly but never really recovered, she was very fragile. I feel that the hit her body took was just too much on top of everything else.
Her phosphorus was high, and she was dehydrated in spite of daily sub q fluids. Her bg remained good and she never developed more than trace ketones, which increased sub q fluids took care of.
The time came when I was forced to realize Eleanor needed, and wanted, to leave this world. It was the most difficult decision I have ever made. She left peacefully with love and dignity, and with me holding her, of course.
Eleanor and her brother, Jake, came into my life in October 2003 as 3 week old feral kitten foster's after their mother was killed by a car. They were both very ill with URI's. By the time they were ready to be adopted out, I was so attached, I adopted them.
I lost sweet Jake to renal cancer in November 2013.
I am really struggling with the loss of Eleanor. As you know, the bond you form with your sugar cat is unlike any other. It is so strong, and it never breaks. When they leave, you are missing your companion and friend, and a huge part of yourself.
Eleanor was never really out of my mind - as I know most of you understand.
I don't know how to deal with the regrets, the should haves etc. I don't know how to let go and carry on, although I suppose one just does, somehow, because you have to go on living.
Eleanor had a hard time for years with pancreatitis, irregular bloodsugar, and "probable" IBD/"possible" lymphoma - I was not able to afford an ultrasound to try to pin that down.
The last years, her bg finally became steady and even flat most of the time sitting in 100's on a low dose of Lantus.
I knew something was wrong and that I was losing her beginning last Fall in spite of blood work and physicals that looked great.
In April she suddenly became very ill and was diagnosed with acute renal failure due to a severe infection. I did not have the $6000+ I was quoted for hospitalization, I can't forgive myself for that, I know how vital IV fluids were. I gave her sub q fluids at home, as well as a 4 week course of two different antibiotics. Eleanor improved greatly but never really recovered, she was very fragile. I feel that the hit her body took was just too much on top of everything else.
Her phosphorus was high, and she was dehydrated in spite of daily sub q fluids. Her bg remained good and she never developed more than trace ketones, which increased sub q fluids took care of.
The time came when I was forced to realize Eleanor needed, and wanted, to leave this world. It was the most difficult decision I have ever made. She left peacefully with love and dignity, and with me holding her, of course.
Eleanor and her brother, Jake, came into my life in October 2003 as 3 week old feral kitten foster's after their mother was killed by a car. They were both very ill with URI's. By the time they were ready to be adopted out, I was so attached, I adopted them.
I lost sweet Jake to renal cancer in November 2013.
I am really struggling with the loss of Eleanor. As you know, the bond you form with your sugar cat is unlike any other. It is so strong, and it never breaks. When they leave, you are missing your companion and friend, and a huge part of yourself.
Eleanor was never really out of my mind - as I know most of you understand.
I don't know how to deal with the regrets, the should haves etc. I don't know how to let go and carry on, although I suppose one just does, somehow, because you have to go on living.
