Supurrkitten
Member Since 2017
Hi,
I think the missed dose and skipped dose in the last 5 cycles is how we got our red/pink AMPS today. I feel horrible that I chose to skip the AM shot on 5/20. I have read up on the protocol and feel educated now. i am determined to stick to the dose for at least 7 cycles. I just feel like I am failing him.
I am afraid he is going to never clear his UTI in time to get his PU repaired and will get a stone and die while I am at work overnight. I am sick that I cannot manage him and wonder if I am making bad decisions. FD is overwhelming and I wonder if I am being selfish treating him. I don't know if he is suffering. I is such a good guy and never complains and seems to tough things out until he is really sick.
I am just ping ponging around the stages of grief. That, or as I said, I am selfish about having him with me and not able to let him go before his quality of life deteriorates.
I know his numbers are not that bad given he started this at over 650. As a healthcare worker, I always have that nagging listen to the vet voice in my head and whenever he goes up I blame myself for not keeping him at 2 units and not checking him. How easy it would be (until something happened and he could he died of hypo) to shoot in the AM and PM and then just wait to take him back to the vet. Knowledge is no fun sometimes. I am a little angry my vet suggested the FDMB and then contradicts its advice and protocols. That is just me being angry about the diagnosis though. Honestly I don't know where I'd be without all of you and your furry sweet kitties.
Just venting.
Oh and BTW I called the number on the back of my ReliOn test strip box today, because about 12 of my strips error-ed out of 50. My error message was user related (not enough fill or something) as a nurse I felt my technique was pretty good and the fill was all the way. I talked to them ad and they are reimbursing me for the strips. It was a very nice conversation. I just wanted them to know in case the lot was bad. Erroring or bad strips are not cool in the life or death situations that can occur with diabetes. The customer service rep transferred me to the distributor who suggested, after hearing my issue, that we also get a new meter. They are sending me a mailer to send back the remaining strips and the old meter and sending a replacement for the meter also.
I just wanted to mention that ReliOn was very nice and extraordinarily accommodating.
SO that is what's up with us. I am just hopefully going through an anxious depressed or guilty phase related to not enough sleep lately. I hope it passes.
EDIT to add: I just realized you cannot see the comments I make when I enter numbers into the slots on Ferg's SS. I guess I need to copy them into the comment line I just saw. I will later. I have to work tonight and need to get a little sleep while my daughter naps.
Wishing all of the sugar kitties, Sugar Mamas and Sugar daddies a great day
Trisha, Fergus' Mama
I think the missed dose and skipped dose in the last 5 cycles is how we got our red/pink AMPS today. I feel horrible that I chose to skip the AM shot on 5/20. I have read up on the protocol and feel educated now. i am determined to stick to the dose for at least 7 cycles. I just feel like I am failing him.
I am afraid he is going to never clear his UTI in time to get his PU repaired and will get a stone and die while I am at work overnight. I am sick that I cannot manage him and wonder if I am making bad decisions. FD is overwhelming and I wonder if I am being selfish treating him. I don't know if he is suffering. I is such a good guy and never complains and seems to tough things out until he is really sick.
I am just ping ponging around the stages of grief. That, or as I said, I am selfish about having him with me and not able to let him go before his quality of life deteriorates.
I know his numbers are not that bad given he started this at over 650. As a healthcare worker, I always have that nagging listen to the vet voice in my head and whenever he goes up I blame myself for not keeping him at 2 units and not checking him. How easy it would be (until something happened and he could he died of hypo) to shoot in the AM and PM and then just wait to take him back to the vet. Knowledge is no fun sometimes. I am a little angry my vet suggested the FDMB and then contradicts its advice and protocols. That is just me being angry about the diagnosis though. Honestly I don't know where I'd be without all of you and your furry sweet kitties.
Just venting.
Oh and BTW I called the number on the back of my ReliOn test strip box today, because about 12 of my strips error-ed out of 50. My error message was user related (not enough fill or something) as a nurse I felt my technique was pretty good and the fill was all the way. I talked to them ad and they are reimbursing me for the strips. It was a very nice conversation. I just wanted them to know in case the lot was bad. Erroring or bad strips are not cool in the life or death situations that can occur with diabetes. The customer service rep transferred me to the distributor who suggested, after hearing my issue, that we also get a new meter. They are sending me a mailer to send back the remaining strips and the old meter and sending a replacement for the meter also.
I just wanted to mention that ReliOn was very nice and extraordinarily accommodating.
SO that is what's up with us. I am just hopefully going through an anxious depressed or guilty phase related to not enough sleep lately. I hope it passes.
EDIT to add: I just realized you cannot see the comments I make when I enter numbers into the slots on Ferg's SS. I guess I need to copy them into the comment line I just saw. I will later. I have to work tonight and need to get a little sleep while my daughter naps.
Wishing all of the sugar kitties, Sugar Mamas and Sugar daddies a great day
Trisha, Fergus' Mama
I wish wish wish I could have seen the dose he gave. I also would have sent him pictures. I had him watch me draw it up once so he kinda knew what to do. I know I was driving him nuts with the questions over and over about where the dose was in the syringe but, If it can go wrong it does at our house. Lots to do and rushed communication. So I think the dose was a bit late. He called at 2056 and his dose was due at 2105. he gave it. I am not sure when though, because I had to run to take care of a patient and could not talk further.