Cathie and Shaak Ti (GA)
Member Since 2016
Okay, I am falling apart here. My son and my housemate have come to me and said it has been since December that Shaak came out of remission. She is not regulated yet, a big part of that is because I can't be awake for enough hours at a time (due to sleep apnea) or in the house for long enough due to Dr appointments and taking kids to classes to give the higher doses to get her back in remission, she is going to have to go below 100 to heal, and when below 100 I will have to be able to afford to test her as much as four times an hour for hours at a time, this is not something I am well enough or have enough money to do at the moment. One of the major issues with this whole scenario is as a result she is peeing all over the floor and this has been going on for months, I am on disability due to many reasons, two of which are Bi Polar and arthritis in my back, hands, feet, hips, and knees, and elbows even. My son and housemate have always had to take care of floors due to this, cleaning of them. They have now come to me and said they think it is time to let go, either turn her over to an animal facility or pts. My son and housemate say they love her but they want her to go away, they can't stand the smell or dirtiness of the floor anymore, that is unsanitary and unhealthy and probably a good reason why I have gotten so much sicker over the last few months. I love Shaak as much as I love my children. I don't know how to express how much I love her, we have a bond, I can't take away her life when she just needs to get regulated. I do think if I got help to clean up the bedroom, kitchen and bathroom floor it might help the situation, they refuse to clean the floors anymore trying to force my hand. I have been told by my psych Dr that I might be eligible for help in the home and I need to take to my case manager about it. I have called her a few times and she has not returned my callo. I am calling again now. I need help, I need help to get house taken care of and also being able to afford supplies to regulate her. I am hoping once June 1 gets here when my son sees his dad for the summer I will be able to with the help of my new CPAP machine and free time to be able to test multiple times a day and if I can find a way to come up with the money to get her regulated and hopefully back in remission. I don't know if I am posting all this to ask for help or just to get it off my chest, but I am so depressed and falling apart that all I can manage due to depression is to drive car back and forth to school and appointments. Anyway, this is my current state of being. Thank everyone for their many prayers for Shaak and our family, I am sure it is one of the reasons I am still functioning at all.

