It's been 2 1/2 weeks

[Sgans and Eegie - GA]

In memory of Eegie and all the help this forum and you guys provided, I've been checking in every once in a while to see how you guys are doing. It makes me feel better to see when you guys are getting good numbers.

Although Eegie was only on insulin for just a month, I felt I got so much support from this group, so I still watch.

I get Eegie's ashes tomorrow. I miss him terribly. Please keep up the fight - hug your sugar babies for me, and get OTJ!

Love from Eegie...

 

[Shiloh & Rhonda (GA)]

Stephanie, I so feel your pain. Thank you for checking in.

 

[BJM]

{{hugs}}

 

[carfurby (GA)]

 

[Tuxedo Mom]

Hold Eegie close in your heart. The memories will last forever.

 

[Dyana]

I'm so sorry for your loss (((((Stephanie))))) You will get support here, as we understand.

 

[Chris/China (GA)/Garfield]

It's good to see you Stephanie

Glad to hear Eegie will be home again tomorrow where he belongs. Watch for him, listen for him....you'll see that he hasn't really left you...you just have to hug him differently

 

[Tiger(GA) and Ruth]

It is good to see you Stephanie, our hearts go out to you on the loss of your sweet Eegie. The one thing I know for sure, this forum is not like any other I have seen -there is so much knowledge and support, and well, love of kitties and that's a powerful formula to have on your side!

 

[Tricia Cinco(GA) & Harvey]

We're always happy to hear from you, Stephanie. I'm glad you'll have Eegie home with you. I know he's watching over you from the bridge. Take care.

 

[rhiannon and shadow (GA)]

sending hugs.... it's so hard to miss them so much....

 

[Sgans and Eegie - GA]

It's good to see you Stephanie

Glad to hear Eegie will be home again tomorrow where he belongs. Watch for him, listen for him....you'll see that he hasn't really left you...you just have to hug him differently

@Chris & China - it's just what I've been doing. I can't help it. I still see him with me, feel him lying on me. I'm finally starting to come to terms with the idea that he'll never be here again, so I can touch him and we can look into each other's eyes.

Thank you guys. You've always been very supportive, and I'm very appreciative. This has been especially hard, he and I had a once-in-a-lifetime relationship.

I just wanted you to know I'm still watching your posts, and still rooting for your babies and you.

 

[julie & punkin (ga)]

Something about these sugar babies . .. i think many of us feel like it's a once-in-a-lifetime relationship. We understand how huge the loss is.

 

[suki & crystal (GA)]

Sending peace and comfort hugs Stephanie, Eegie will never be forgotten.

 

[Sgans and Eegie - GA]

@julie & punkin (ga) - scientifically, I can't connect the diabetes and Eegie's special-ness. Eegie was my soul-cat from the moment we met in 2001. I believe his diabetes was the result of a few things - despite the fact that he was clearly well loved before he met us, he'd also been on the street a long time, according to his teeth. Also, even though his last day was "Hi" number - that was the result of a cascade of everything that'd started with his IBD, and was certainly exacerbated by his cancer. I believe the diabetes was in large part, the result of the Depo Medrol shots we got Eegie for his IBD - and still, I'm grateful for them. I believe that without them, I'd have lost him about 13 months earlier than I did.

Perhaps, there's an inherent "sweetness" to our "sugar cats". I can go with that. There's certainly an additional closeness that gets formed when you're holding your cat so many times a day and pricking him with needles just to make him better - monitoring every little thing that's going on - the bond formed from that is a very strong glue.

But, Eegie was my soul cat for 13 years, 6 months and 6 days, from the moment we met. He grabbed my heart that very first minute, and never let it go.

I hope everybody on this site doesn't have to feel this for a very very long time, but this pain is worth every moment I spent with him.

 

[Chris/China (GA)/Garfield]

Stephanie...I don't remember if I posted this in your Facebook post when you lost Eegie, but in case I didn't, I hope you'll read this fable. It's titled "The Loving Ones", but I've always called it "You have chosen tears"

I think if you polled the people here and asked them "If you'd never have to feel the pain of losing them, would you agree to never have them in the first place"? with a resounding NO!!

 

[Sgans and Eegie - GA]

@Chris & China - that was beautiful - and now I'm messed up for teaching class... I'm glad I read it at the beginning of lunch break, so I can clear my crying. I did choose tears - I always do. I'd never have given up one moment of my time with Eegie to save myself this pain..... I just wish it was a lot more time. Thank you.

 

[Chris/China (GA)/Garfield]

Sorry about that...I usually do warn people that it'll make them cry. I still cry when I read it and I've read it hundreds of times!!

I hope it brought you a little peace and of course Eegie is looking down at you through your own pool of tears.

 

[Sgans and Eegie - GA]

It did. It's lovely. I'm getting more used to my broken heart. I just need to learn to live with the scar - done it before, will do it again, and again. If there is such a place - or any kind of reincarnation - I know that's a soul I'll always have with me in my life. I just miss the actual "little gray furry bag of love" that was with me for all that time - a time for which, for every moment, I'm grateful.