Todd.. Saying Goodbye

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ToddyTiger

ToddyTiger

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Though I posted on the main board, since some of you know Todd, I thought I should post here as well...

Todd has not been well for the last few days. His anemia is at 10-13 and he had a bad seizure last night and now, he can't really use his back legs. I posted all of this to the main board last night... Anyway.. Update:

He's at the vet right now. He still can't use his back legs right and I haven't seen him pee all night.. probably because it's just too hard to walk. That is unusual since he has CRF and diabetes. The vet went over his blood work and we both talked about our options.. she said we have three choices.. try to treat for the CRF, Diabetes, Anemia and anything else via blood transfusions, meds and so on. Or we could bring him home and just let him be as comfortable as possible (though since he's not eating or peeing and can hardly walk, I doubt he's comfortable) or we could say goodbye..

Money is not the issue, quality of life is. I don't think, at 17 years old with all of his other problems, that doing a blood transfusion will really help him... at most it may give us a few days, weeks or a month. But he would at some point need another transfusion.. Our vet agreed. So it seems we may be saying goodbye today.

I left him at the vet so she and the other vet we see there, can take a look at him again and make sure this is the way to go. But he looks so sad and miserable, not to mention somewhat out of it still from the seizure he had last night.. I think this is the right choice.


I've been crying off and on since I got home and our other kitties can see that and have been trying to make me feel better.

This will be the 4th kitty we have let go since 2006. It's so hard and it never gets easier. Toddy is my baby-tiger.

Thank you all for your support and love.

Sarah
 
I am sorry you are dealing with this right now .. but you are right in thinking quality of life for Todd needs to be important .. It is a hard choice to make nonetheless .. Hugs to you all ...
 
I am so sorry you have to go through this. This is the toughest of decisions. But you know Todd best and when it's his time to let go.

My heart is heavy for you.
 
Sarah, I am so sorry for all that you are going through right now. it never is easy, but I think you have made the right choice, as difficult as it may be. It is the greatest gift we can give our furkids. I am so very sorry.... Hugs. understanding, support from Mannie and I.
 
Sarah....my heart is heavy for you today....((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))).

It is the hardest decision to have to make and when the time is come...it is the most loving and least selfish.
 
Sarah, there is no way this ever becomes easier. It is the last, hardest thing we do for our furkids. It is proof of how much you truly love him that you will let Todd leave when he needs to go. :YMHUG: :YMHUG: We will light candles to guide his way whe you make the decision.
 
Dear Sarah, You are listening to Todd and doing what he wants you to do. It is the most loving gift you can give him: his release. We will light a candle to guide his way to the Bridge, where he will be greeted by all of our GAs and where he will be healthy and without pain, waiting patiently until you meet again.

Ella & Rusty & Stu (GA)
 
The time has been set up for 4:30 pacific time today.. They gave me the option of bringing him home for a few hours and then brining him back, but I think that would just be harder on him. They have a "quiet room" in the back with a couch, so I'm going to head over in a little while with some tuna and treats and spend some time with him before 4:30.

Thank you all.. I just keep crying and thinking about the day we found him in front of the local grocery store. It's been a wonderful 17 years, even during the hard times.
 
oh Sarah,
this i know has got to be the hardest decision ever.....know you are doing this out of love for Todd and he knows that....

will keep you in my thoughts and prayers as you deal with this heartache....

(((((Sarah))))((((Todd)))))
 
I will be lighting a candle for your sweet Todd tonight. You have given Todd a beautiful life and now you are giving him the ultimate, but heartbreaking gift of letting him go so he will be in peace and free from pain. Fly free!
 
(((((Sarah))))) ((((((Todd)))))) I am so sorry. I wish saying goodbye didn't hurt like it does. Todd found you that day in front of the grocery store. He was meant to be yours and had a life filled with love. He will take that with him. My heart is breaking for you.

Wishing him a safe crossing and will be keeping you in my thoughts.
 
Lit a candle for you this evening. I hope your other furbabies can help you through this difficult time...
 
((( Sarah )))

I'm so sorry, Sarah. You are so brave for your boy. Toddy was lucky to have you as his bean and guardian angel while he was here, and now he will be yours.
 
(((Sarah))) what a most selfless gift you have given Todd....to set him free where he will be whole again....where he will be that kitten that you raised to be such a wonderful companion. We are so sorry for your pain. We have also lit a candle for Todd to help guide his way. Fly free, Todd. Gentle Journey.
 
I'm so very sorry you had to make this decision. Diabetes we can fight and win. Renal failure...it always wins. 3 of my last 4 cats were taken by it. Know you did everything you could. Fly free to a wonderful bridge...
 
Sarah, I'm so sorry. You have had to handle such difficult facts of life. You are hurting because you are taking the responsibility of helping. It is such a loving gift to give our beloved feline companions. Wishing you comfort through this.
 
Thank you all so very much.

I spent 2 hours with him at the vet. He was cold, couldn't stand up and I knew he just didn't want to fight anymore.

Our vet did a quick ultrasound on him (no charge, didn't ask.. was really nice of them to do that. <3 ) because they wanted to see what was going on. They said it looked like there was fluid buildup around his kidneys and his liver was oddly shaped with a possible mass on it. Our vet is new to doing ultrasounds, but they all felt that what they saw was correct.

They told me honestly I was doing he right thing.. which was what I needed to hear from them. This was right..

He went peacefully in my arms, with my mom and my husband there with us. The whole clinic seemed to be very sad. They really loved Todd a lot.

I had a really rough night.. it was weird waking up and not having to check his glucose or give his shot, going to bed was hard because I always did his Sub-Q before bed. *sigh*


Thank you all so much for all of the help, prayers and good thoughts. I will be sticking around for a while, I am sure.


One thing.. though I think it will be a few days before I can go through anything without crying.. But I don't know what to do with all of Todd's medicine. I have needles, Sub-Q bags, dry k/d food and such. Our other kitties are young with no health problems. Can someone suggest a group in Seattle that may need them? We would like to keep the glucose meter, but I have brand new glucose strips for a ReliOn Micro meter that can go to someone that needs them.

Toddy Tiger <3
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That's how my Champ sleeps and it looks like it could be him with the white belly (Champ is a little more beige than orange). I feel so bad for you, though I know Todd is doing so much better now. You absolutely did the nicest, bravest, most wonderful thing for him! I hope I'm as brave when the time comes.
 
Oh Sarah I am so sorry you had to say goodbye to your Toddy. You gave him 17 years of love, and that number in itself is impressive. I believe it was meant to be that you found each other at the store that day. He looks like such a sweet boy, love that picture.

I'm glad that you and your family had time to spend with him before he crossed. He died peacefully in your arms which is bittersweet but none the less comforting.

Fly Free Sweet Toddy. wings_cat

My thoughts are with you and your family. (((Sarah)))

jan and sara
 
Hi Sarah,
I'm an oldtimer on this board, and I just wanted to say that I am thinking of you and your family during this difficult time. I will tell my Cosmo (GA) to welcome ToddyTiger to the rainbow bridge, and show him around a bit.

I know it is overwhelming right now, the grief. It feels like you can't breathe, and you physically ache from missing him. You made the hardest decision, and gave him the biggest gift of love you could give. A wonderful life full of love and making that difficult decision even though you selfishly would've rather had more time with him.

As for his medical supplies.... I asked some people who I knew had kitties with CRF if they needed the SQ fluids and needles; strips donated to those who I knew used the same type of glucose monitor. Meds can also be divvied up this way. Jojo told me that if you're really not sure, you should donate to wildlife shelters; no one thinks to donate to them and they need medical care too!!!

hugs
Cyn, Cosmo (GA), and Danger (civvie littermate)
 
What a precious beautiful picture.

I donated Maverick's insulin testing supplies to a non profit animal shelter. They have to pay vets to do glucose testing. I was able to train all their staff on how easy it was to test and explained that human meters read about 30 points less than the vet meters do. They were grateful.

Sending more hugs your way. It is so hard to live in the space they used to fill. Their tiny bodies have a huge presence and personalities.
 
Oh Sarah,

My stomach just turned when I read about Toddy Tiger. Poor poor thing. I'm so sad for you and can't imagine the pain that you're going through. Just wanted to say how sorry I am for your kitty cat.

Bonnie
 
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