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Darnell & Sprocket (GA)

Darnell & Sprocket (GA)

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:rb_icon:cat_wings>oSprockets journey with diabetes came to an end on Jan 18, @4:45pm due to large cell lymphoma of the kidney. After his ultrasound we did an aspirate & I think that's what took him down. Since then his condition deteriorated. He had severe soupy poopy for a week until one med finally worked. His appetite got to be less & less despite the appy stim & steroid that usually increases appetite. Its possible that something else spread that messed up his insides or all the meds he was on but either way he stopped eating. We tried to syringe feed but that didnt last longer than a week as he pushed it away badly.
I felt horrible always giving him food or meds. His will to live was there but his body was not cooperating. I tried everything i could but nothing worked. I was lying on the floor with him petting him & he let me touch his paws. He never lets me touch his paws. That was my sign he was suffering. I could see it in his face. He stopped most grooming. He would only eat a few temptations treats on friday with water or tuna juice.
We said goodbye Friday late afternoon. My heart is broken. I am lost. He was most of my day for so long. I know he had almost 4 yrs longer than if he was elsewhere but I still feel like I failed him. I didnt stop the cancer. It was too fast. Day before the ultrasound he was acting fine & playing with a little reduction in appetite.
One month later he is gone. I miss him so much. I look around my house & his stuff is everywhere. Beds, toys, diabetic supplies, food piles, etc.
He changed my life forever. He made me find a family of diabetic cat parents that helped strangers just to help. I found some forever friends in those strangers. He showed me great courage, love, & kindness. He learned to trust me unconditionally.
Despite his rough start in life he had such a kind soul that loved & just wanted to be loved. He was so intelligent that i knew he understood everything i told him. He proved that by showing me.
I pray he is playing (pain free)with all his passed family & friend kitties at Rainbow Bridge looking down at us. I hope he shows me signs that he is ok soon. I miss him so much. My heart hurts. I keep crying alot. Cordelia is looking for him still. She misses him too. She is all alone now. I cant believe he is actually gone.

I thank you all for your help especially when my anxiety went bonkers.
Love you all, my family of people I have never met.

And I know someone here knows how to make a tribute video & collage. If its you please private message me & I hope you can help me make both. Thanks. :rb_icon:cat_wings>o
 

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Ah Darnell.
Big huge hugs from all across the miles. :bighug:

You were a perfect match for each other. Both sharing great courage, love, & kindness.

Take care of you in the hard days and weeks to come.

M
 
Darnell & Sprocket said:
He changed my life forever. He made me find a family of diabetic cat parents that helped strangers just to help. I found some forever friends in those strangers. He showed me great courage, love, & kindness. He learned to trust me unconditionally.
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I am so very sorry for your pain of loss.
These words you write... I’ll write too when Nelli leaves my life, in body.
Big, big, big hugs to you (and so many others here on this site) :bighug: :bighug: :bighug:
 
Dear Darnell, You did everything you could for your boy, and his life was greatly enriched because of your love. Tonight the moon is full and Sprocket will be there at the Bridge, partying under the Full Wolf Moon with his old pals and communicating with the L&LL kitties through the veil at the Circle of Remembrance.
He is in "good paws" at the Bridge until that wonderful day when you are reunited. Until then, look for him in that special place in your heart that belongs only to him.
Hug your dear Cordelia and help her in this time of loss. She needs to mourn, too.
Fly free handsome Sprocket. You are much loved. cat_wings>o

In loving remembrance and deep sympathy,

Ella & Edward, Rusty (GA), and Stu (GA)
 
Darnell & Sprocket said:
:rb_icon:cat_wings>oSprockets journey with diabetes came to an end on Jan 18, @4:45pm due to large cell lymphoma of the kidney. After his ultrasound we did an aspirate & I think that's what took him down. Since then his condition deteriorated. He had severe soupy poopy for a week until one med finally worked. His appetite got to be less & less despite the appy stim & steroid that usually increases appetite. Its possible that something else spread that messed up his insides or all the meds he was on but either way he stopped eating. We tried to syringe feed but that didnt last longer than a week as he pushed it away badly.
I felt horrible always giving him food or meds. His will to live was there but his body was not cooperating. I tried everything i could but nothing worked. I was lying on the floor with him petting him & he let me touch his paws. He never lets me touch his paws. That was my sign he was suffering. I could see it in his face. He stopped most grooming. He would only eat a few temptations treats on friday with water or tuna juice.
We said goodbye Friday late afternoon. My heart is broken. I am lost. He was most of my day for so long. I know he had almost 4 yrs longer than if he was elsewhere but I still feel like I failed him. I didnt stop the cancer. It was too fast. Day before the ultrasound he was acting fine & playing with a little reduction in appetite.
One month later he is gone. I miss him so much. I look around my house & his stuff is everywhere. Beds, toys, diabetic supplies, food piles, etc.
He changed my life forever. He made me find a family of diabetic cat parents that helped strangers just to help. I found some forever friends in those strangers. He showed me great courage, love, & kindness. He learned to trust me unconditionally.
Despite his rough start in life he had such a kind soul that loved & just wanted to be loved. He was so intelligent that i knew he understood everything i told him. He proved that by showing me.
I pray he is playing (pain free)with all his passed family & friend kitties at Rainbow Bridge looking down at us. I hope he shows me signs that he is ok soon. I miss him so much. My heart hurts. I keep crying alot. Cordelia is looking for him still. She misses him too. She is all alone now. I cant believe he is actually gone.

I thank you all for your help especially when my anxiety went bonkers.
Love you all, my family of people I have never met.

And I know someone here knows how to make a tribute video & collage. If its you please private message me & I hope you can help me make both. Thanks. :rb_icon:cat_wings>o
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Sending love.......
 
You did not fail Sprocket. I had a partial meltdown in Grief on the weekend about the same thing and my friends here made me feel so much better.
Grief never really goes away but with help from your friends here the sun will rise again. Lean on us all you want, we've all been there and that is what friends do.
All our boys and girls have a spot picked out for Sprocket across the bridge. The grass is warm, no pain and only good memories.
For you, Sprocket and everyone else suffering an undeserved pain, :bighug: :bighug: :bighug:
 
Noah & me (GA) said:
You did not fail Sprocket. I had a partial meltdown in Grief on the weekend about the same thing and my friends here made me feel so much better.
Grief never really goes away but with help from your friends here the sun will rise again. Lean on us all you want, we've all been there and that is what friends do.
All our boys and girls have a spot picked out for Sprocket across the bridge. The grass is warm, no pain and only good memories.
For you, Sprocket and everyone else suffering an undeserved pain, :bighug: :bighug: :bighug:
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Thanks. I am falling apart alot too. I will post in Grief section soon cause I am a mess.
hugs
 
I wish there were something I could say to lessen your grief, but there is not. I am deeply sorry for the loss of your beloved Sprocket. You did all you could. We cannot know their suffering, because they cannot speak, but every day we do our best for our beloved fur babies, and that is exactly what you did. Be kind and gentle and patient with yourself and love Cordelia as much as you can. All you have is one another to get through this. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Oh Darnell, I am so sorry to learn that Sprocket has crossed the Bridge.
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You did NOT fail him in any way! You went above and beyond what most people would do for him. He knew how much you loved him, and he trusted you to do what was best for him. You repaid that trust by giving him what he wanted most, his freedom, even though you didn't want to let him go. Just remember, he will always be with you, for he remains firmly planted in your heart.

Take all the time you need to grieve, and give Cordelia lots of love, as she is grieving, too. Remember you are a part of this family, and we'll always be here for you. :bighug::bighug::bighug:

Fly free, sweet Sprocket, and land softly. :rb_icon:
 
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