Jessi is leaving us

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Stefania S

Stefania S

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It is with immense pain and anguish, yet knowing it is time, that I have made the most difficult decision there is to make. Today, in just a few moments, we will help Jessi leave her ailing body. It's a long story with so many twists and turns, and much of which is recorded here in many of my threads. Right now, I am only posting briefly to ask for your support in the form of loving wishes and thoughts, prayers, and whatever way works for you.

May her transition be peaceful, quick, easy, gentle...and allow her to finally be free from the hardships of this life.

May I find the courage and strength to forgive myself and others for the pain we have caused her, and to let her go so I can live a good life as I wanted for both of us all along.

Thank you for your support in this heart breaking time.
 
I'm so sorry! I'm saying prayers that your sweet girl has a good crossing ...I know she will bc your love will carry her! It's devastating to lose them. I love thinking in one way or another our spirits will be reunited.
 
Stefania S said:
It is with immense pain and anguish, yet knowing it is time, that I have made the most difficult decision there is to make. Today, in just a few moments, we will help Jessi leave her ailing body. It's a long story with so many twists and turns, and much of which is recorded here in many of my threads. Right now, I am only posting briefly to ask for your support in the form of loving wishes and thoughts, prayers, and whatever way works for you.

May her transition be peaceful, quick, easy, gentle...and allow her to finally be free from the hardships of this life.

May I find the courage and strength to forgive myself and others for the pain we have caused her, and to let her go so I can live a good life as I wanted for both of us all along.

Thank you for your support in this heart breaking time.
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I am truly sorry for your loss, your furr baby was impressive looking, I am sure it will be and extremely difficult for you, If you baby was in pain and suffering, your decision was out of love for her, I cannot imagine your pain but it scares me for my Corky I thought I was also going to lose him and just the thought was breaking my heart, and the thought of losing him was devastating. Best wishes to you God bless you:bighug::bighug::bighug::rb_icon:cat_wings>o
 
I am so sorry for your loss. It is never easy to say goodbye to our pets. I hope your memories of her will bring you comfort.

Fly free sweet Jessi and watch over everyone who loves you.

cat_wings>o
 
I am sorry for the loss of your sweet Jessi, I wish they could be with us forever. She knows how much you love her & cared for her to keep her with you as long as you could. Take care of yourself many hugs to you :bighug::bighug::bighug: fly free sweet Jessicat_wings>o & watch over your mommy
 
Knowing that we're making the right decision sometimes makes that decision even harder. Jessi will know that you were there with her. She will be waiting for you at the far side of the Bridge.
 
I’m sorry to read this. You took such good care of her. Sending prayers for a peaceful passing. Take care of yourself. I’ve had to make the same decision with all of my cats after vatting for various illnesses and it’s been peaceful. :bighug:
 
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I’m sorry to read this. You took such good care of her. Sending prayers for a peaceful passing. Take care of yourself. I’ve had to make the same decision with all of my cats after vatting for various illnesses and it’s been peaceful. :bighug:
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Did I? Did I really take such good care of her? Often it really doesn’t feel that way.

I let her suffer too much. I should have known when to stop much sooner. I should have followed what I felt was right for her many times instead of following my own need to get her well.

She experienced so much stress and trauma in these last 6 months, especially that last 3 months, in the end the stress itself was just too much for her.

I wish I could go back and do it all over. I would do things very differently.

So much deep regret...
 
I’m so sorry, Stefania.
My heart is breaking and I’m crying with you. I’d been remembering you and Jessi and thought to log in to check. I know our kitties are so fragile and life is uncertain but even so I’d been looking forward to Jessi getting well soon. I’m so sorry you had to say good bye to her.

I know both you and Jessi had been struggling so much. I’m sure Jessi knew and felt your love for her and that all that you’ve done was only for her to get well and be pain-free.

Sending lots of hugs and healing your way, Stefania. It’s difficult not being hard on yourself at such times but the only thing to do is to try, one day at a time.

Jessi will always be around you in all the little things and memories. It’s painful in the beginning but one day she’ll be a warm, gentle memory making you smile.

Take good care of yourself, Stefania.
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Stefania,

I'm so sorry to hear about Jessi. I had been following along with your spreadsheet and your journey since we both started around the same time. I didn't realize so much time had passed since I last checked in and heard the news. I'm sad you went through this and hope you are healing.
 
Stefania S said:
It is with immense pain and anguish, yet knowing it is time, that I have made the most difficult decision there is to make. Today, in just a few moments, we will help Jessi leave her ailing body. It's a long story with so many twists and turns, and much of which is recorded here in many of my threads. Right now, I am only posting briefly to ask for your support in the form of loving wishes and thoughts, prayers, and whatever way works for you.

May her transition be peaceful, quick, easy, gentle...and allow her to finally be free from the hardships of this life.

May I find the courage and strength to forgive myself and others for the pain we have caused her, and to let her go so I can live a good life as I wanted for both of us all along.

Thank you for your support in this heart breaking time.
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Oh Stefania! I am so sorry that somehow I didn’t see this message before now. Hugs and much love to you! You have loved your beautiful Jessi soooo much. You have fought so hard to try to help her. I am really so very sad for you. I understand how deeply this has hurt you… to let her go. I’m so sorry that things didn’t turn out better. She will always be with you in your heart.
 
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Stefania S said:
Did I? Did I really take such good care of her? Often it really doesn’t feel that way.

I let her suffer too much. I should have known when to stop much sooner. I should have followed what I felt was right for her many times instead of following my own need to get her well.

She experienced so much stress and trauma in these last 6 months, especially that last 3 months, in the end the stress itself was just too much for her.

I wish I could go back and do it all over. I would do things very differently.

So much deep regret...
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I have felt this way before many times. I believed it is a normal part of the grieving process when I have lost my fur babies (at least for me.) I re-examine every single thing that I did and every single thing that I did not do. I blame myself for everything. I am very harsh with myself and have tremendous feelings of guilt for not doing everything perfectly and for things not turning out as I had wanted. I take full responsibility for the failure and for all their suffering. However, I am not God. I only know what I knew at the time, and oftentimes I have learned a lot more after my baby has gone. I cannot see the future or predict all outcomes. In addition, the vets also have responsibility. It is terribly painful and I think I just turn all my anger and pain upon myself. Finally, I come to a better place of accepting that I acted out of great love for my cat — that all of my decisions may not have been correct (but who really knows and who is to pass judgment on that?) but they were made from love. I’m so sorry. Please take it easy on yourself.
 
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