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...but I have been preparing myself.

Beau will gain his wings in the morning. I needed taht one more night with him. We went to Vet special hospital, and they found fluid on lungs and heart; something else; fatty liver; diabetes; anemia. His numbers were WAY worse than last week, and the Vet said he really need to have peace.

I so wanted this NOT to happen, but Vet assured me that with the fluid added to everything else, that he needed to be treated NOW, and the problem was now that treated one thing led to damage with the other, so in the long run, cardiologist and IVs, etc. would just prolong, but not give him quality. This morning he was just so sick, and I can't expect him to go thru all of this. He deserves better, ut my heart is breaking.
 
I am relieved. My vet was not sure what was going on, and I did not want to make this choice until backed in a corner. I prayed last nite to have courage, and all these things wrong made it no decision at all. I was told that with all this fluid, he cold have a horrible death if I decided to just keep him here and see what happens. He is not eating; he is not enjoying life. I don't have the money, but was planning on doing wahtever, and told the Vet that. I was told that frankly, he had so much against him, that there was no chance of a cure or quality. I can't do that to him for my own selfishness.

Tonite, after a nice warm bath while he lays by his water bowl for a while, and is now out of his carrier after 5 hours or more in there, we will have quality time. I will rub and love and kiss, even tho he won't kiss back. It's OK. I know this is something I am doing "for him", and unless some miracle happens, we will go in the morning. honestly, I wish his little body would just go without my having to do it, but that is not my decision.
 
I'm SO sorry it's Beau's time to cross but what a life of love you shared. Remember, he won't be 'gone', you just have to hug him differently.

Soar high on your new angel wings sweet boy....landing softly back in Mama's broken heart...
 
So sorry to hear the news of your sweet Beau :bighug::bighug::bighug:

We all wish it was much better news, but it sounds like you're making this decision out of love for him and that's the most important thing.
 
pat121 said:
I am relieved. My vet was not sure what was going on, and I did not want to make this choice until backed in a corner. I prayed last nite to have courage, and all these things wrong made it no decision at all. I was told that with all this fluid, he cold have a horrible death if I decided to just keep him here and see what happens. He is not eating; he is not enjoying life. I don't have the money, but was planning on doing wahtever, and told the Vet that. I was told that frankly, he had so much against him, that there was no chance of a cure or quality. I can't do that to him for my own selfishness.

Tonite, after a nice warm bath while he lays by his water bowl for a while, and is now out of his carrier after 5 hours or more in there, we will have quality time. I will rub and love and kiss, even tho he won't kiss back. It's OK. I know this is something I am doing "for him", and unless some miracle happens, we will go in the morning. honestly, I wish his little body would just go without my having to do it, but that is not my decision.
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This was how I knew it was time to let Mouse cross the bridge, when I prayed for God to take her home so I wouldn't have to be the one to say "it's time". My heart is breaking for you.....:bighug::(
 
I had been praying for a miracle. No miracles, but lst nite, I prayed that I have strength to make this decision. I guess I'm glad it's nor harder. He was never a bother, nd I do remembver saying one night 'i wish all of this was over', and i feel guilty, but the stress of all of these things is a bit overwhelming. Having said that, I told the doctor today I was willing to go the limit, both time/energy and money, BUT she assured me that tomorrow morning at the latest was the kindest, and that two of the conditions would make him quite ill and he would suffer. He's too much of a sweetie for taht.

Right now, he is laying by his water bowl, and I am about to eat for the first time today. I would say a few beers are i line for me. His FF case just arrived, but I would hope the other cat (who is 22 lb.) will enjoy some of that, or if not, it will be donated.
I had always hoped I would go firfst, because I could never imagine a life without him. However, I do know it was not in God's plan for him to remain here, and he needs to be set free from the testing, and poking, and force feeding and all the other organs that are shutting down on him.
 
I am so sorry Pat....I'm shocked reading this....I know he wasn't doing good, but I guess I so wanted (like you) for him to just make a complete turnaround.

I admire your courage...doing what is best for him. Please come back here when you need support, we will be thinking of you and sweet Beau....I'm just so sorry, Pat. I'm sending a virtual kiss to Beau...:kiss:

Big Hugs and prayers :bighug::bighug::bighug:

Dawn and Peek-a-Boo
 
I understand how you are feeling. I had to give Tiger her wings this morning. It is never easy to say goodbye to one of our love pets. But the best way we can show we love them is to free them from any pain or suffering.
 
Dawn, he had improved and I was so optimistic. But on Sunday/late Sat. nite, he refused to eat. With fatty liver, he HAS to eat. (sorry if this is a repeat). He hid under a chair from me, and I thik I knew he was asking me to stop force feeding him, and giving meds, and just let him cross over. No, we were going to beat this, because I love you and need you. And honestly, having been there to hold Mom and Dad's hand as they died, and my dog, I think I knew that look was "please let me go". Vet (mine) was not ready to give up, but quandry as to why all of this was happening. Vet at hospital said it was time, but I knew that i GUESS.

Right now, he's sleeping in his fave basket at my feet, and I need to unwind. Then we will have our time and I will hold him, and hopefully get him on my bed, but honestly, he likes to be alone in his basket sleeping. I, on the other hand, will need to stroke him and kiss him and just touch him until I can't any longer.

Kills, kills, kills me, but he needs peace. And for me, a full-time job so I'm not here thinking about him and missing him so much.
 
Lisa and Witn (GA) said:
I understand how you are feeling. I had to give Tiger her wings this morning. It is never easy to say goodbye to one of our love pets. But the best way we can show we love them is to free them from any pain or suffering.
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I am SO sorry. Haven't been on here much since he declined over weekend, and doubt I will be for the next few days. This board has been such a support, so hope I can give some back. Just not right now.
 
You are a good mom to Beau, Pat....and if you were there to hold both of your parents hands when they passed...a very special daughter as well...wow...:bighug::bighug::bighug:

Take care of yourself. For what it's worth, @Critter Mom had kindly suggested Rescue Remedy, a product you can find online or GNC when you are feeling a bit overloaded...it's subtle, but I did feel a difference...might be worth a try. For now, the beers might be in order. Big hugs and prayers to you.

Dawn
 
Pat, I replied to your other thread as well, before I saw this one. Again, I am so, so very sorry. I had so hoped that things would improve for Beau. But he loves you and trusts you to make the right decisions for him, no matter how painful. You are such a strong, compassionate kitty Mom, and your deep love for Beau could never be in doubt. Sending prayers and strength. I hope you will both find peace, in your own ways.

(((HUGS)))

Lucy

Fly fee, beloved Beauregard cat_wings>o
 
I am just wanting to take him and run. lol Maybe by running, we can escape this. I felt the same with Dad and told the doctor he was NOT going to die. Same with Mom. I finally told both of them (and a beloved dog) that it was OK and I could survive without them. All three of them were gone almost immediately. "People" just seem to wait for that one person that they know loves them beyond belief to give them permission.

I wish I could wave a magic wand, as we all do. You can't stasnd the helpless to be in pain and you not be able to do anything. I will do tomorrow, and I want so to keep struggling, but Vet assured me that even that will not save him, because just too many issues. Too young to go, but then children go. And some of the best people on the planet go early.

I keep thinking how much he loved sitting and looking out his window, and how much he was going to love it this spring when birds are out there. I realize Mom, Dad (his birthday is tomorrow) and others will be there to welcome him, and no more forced feeding. I just wish that he could live without the food, etc. and give me more time to love on him. Selfish and I won't change my mind, and knowing some days, life just isn't fair.
 
This is so heartbreaking - your sorrow is so palpable and I am very sorry - unfortunately , their lifespans are much too short
Will be thinking of you tomorrow :bighug::bighug:
 
We know up front that it's a short time. For me, this was such a perfect cat in every way. Never ever did anything other than love and cuddle and I often prayed taht I would go first. I even had money that was going for their upkeep, and had told family/friends that they needed to be found new homes immediately. In that regard, I know I won't worry if anything should happen that he will be cared for. And being alone, that was a worry.

Back to the floor. Just need a little nourishment and he needed to breathe some.
 
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