Doodles is now resting peacefully. DH & I took him to see his cardiologist, Dr. Church to help him cross. Dr. Church has been the only vetty that truly helped Doodles. I did plea one last time with Dr. Chruch to please give Doodles a new heart and it just isn’t possible. Dr. Chruch said they are not good at open heart surgery but I asked him to work on that. I took Doodles to the crematorium in a make shift casket, petting and kissing him on the drive there. Doodles was ready to come back home a few hours later. Many of you know this pain and have assured me it will fade and it is comforting…a little…that Doodles is with too many beloved GA’s to make sure he’s not scared. He’s the first and only cat I’ve ever lost and we were co-dependant to say the least.
Doodles had been giving me hints about how tired he was and I had to force myself to hear him. When I asked Doodles if he wanted to go for more tests to see how we could help him he said “no mommy.” Dr. Church, his cardiologist and I spoke late Friday night after the last horrible coughing episode Doodles had on Thursday. He suspects Doodles is resistant to Lasix at such a high dose (60mg a day) and still having recurrent CHF ....his little heart was just too big to work properly anymore. He also confirmed once again we could not treat the asthma which means I could not help Doodles breath better. With last coughing episode Thursday on top of the constant open mouth & heavy breathing the outcome was imminent. The risk of watching Doodles go into cardiac arrest or gasp for air, is something I could no longer live with…nor could my sweet boy. His QOL was still pretty good considering which is very important to me….he has suffered and fought long enough.
There are no words to describe how grateful Doodles and I are for our L&LL family. Without all of you Doodles & I wouldn't have made it this far. An extra thank you which is not enough to
@Marje and Gracie for not only posting on Doodles behalf yesterday but for taking countless calls from me during this journey, most of me being hysterical, some just to chat but most of all for the extra special friendship. "Team Doodles"
@Marje and Gracie ,
@Wendy&Neko ,
@Jill & Alex (GA) ,
@Sandy and Black Kitty ,
@julie & punkin (ga) when he became the mystery cat and needed extra special help I thank you with all my heart.
I'm hesitant to tag everyone individually because I'll surely make mistakes in doing so. Know that each and everyone of you have made a huge impact on our life. We've celebrated milestones with all our kitties.... even things like a good poop, many OTJ parties and mourned too many losses...all together as a big family.
Eventually I'll try to put together a happier tribute to remember my boy by...he truly is a happy, gentle, sweet, loving, funny little guy. In the meantime, below are the last few pictures I took and where he's resting on our fireplace along with the pendant that will keep him with me.
Doodles, Moo & DH, Joe....and the crazy bean you all know
