Brianna & Xander
Member Since 2024
Previous post: 2/11/26
I'm so sorry that it's taken so long for me to update. It's been over a week and I still don't have the words.
When we left the emergency vet on 2/11 and went home, I was fairly confident everything would be okay. The vet said that he was suffering right now, and that she wouldn't think letting him go was a bad idea based on what she was seeing, but that he may be fine once we got him to eat. She said that we would know when it was the right time. Unfortunately, despite doing everything we could to help him feel good enough, Xander simply still would not eat. Fluids, meds for pain and nausea, Mirataz, and simply having basically eaten nothing for a whole day weren't enough, and I knew immediately that it was that time. The only other option would have been to syringe feed him, and we know from experience how much he suffered from that and I wasn't willing to subject him to it.
He was tired. He said no. He didn't want to do this anymore. I didn't want him to have to.
We said goodbye to my sweet boy just after 11 pm on 2/11. My heart is utterly broken and the whole world is grey. My best friend is gone. My whole universe, in an instant, was gone.
I've been dreading this post. I didn't know what to say. I still don't. But I felt like I needed to share how truly special he was and how very much I adored him and our unique bond. So instead I made a video, which I hope you may take the time to watch.
Thank all of you so very, very much for all of your help in the past ~13 months. You are the reason I was able to have that much more time with my sweet boy. I would tag people but I'm afraid to miss anyone. And thank you to everyone who helped us with our fundraiser - it, miraculously, covered the entire ER bill almost to the cent (aside from the return for goodbye).
I don't think I'll be gone forever, but I may need to post this and check out for a bit. Please know that I will absolutely read every comment when I can. My wonderful Mom traveled 3000 miles to be with me when I called because I lost my baby, so I have some happy distraction to ease this a bit (to the degree it can).
We love you all.
I'm so sorry that it's taken so long for me to update. It's been over a week and I still don't have the words.
When we left the emergency vet on 2/11 and went home, I was fairly confident everything would be okay. The vet said that he was suffering right now, and that she wouldn't think letting him go was a bad idea based on what she was seeing, but that he may be fine once we got him to eat. She said that we would know when it was the right time. Unfortunately, despite doing everything we could to help him feel good enough, Xander simply still would not eat. Fluids, meds for pain and nausea, Mirataz, and simply having basically eaten nothing for a whole day weren't enough, and I knew immediately that it was that time. The only other option would have been to syringe feed him, and we know from experience how much he suffered from that and I wasn't willing to subject him to it.
He was tired. He said no. He didn't want to do this anymore. I didn't want him to have to.
We said goodbye to my sweet boy just after 11 pm on 2/11. My heart is utterly broken and the whole world is grey. My best friend is gone. My whole universe, in an instant, was gone.
I've been dreading this post. I didn't know what to say. I still don't. But I felt like I needed to share how truly special he was and how very much I adored him and our unique bond. So instead I made a video, which I hope you may take the time to watch.
Thank all of you so very, very much for all of your help in the past ~13 months. You are the reason I was able to have that much more time with my sweet boy. I would tag people but I'm afraid to miss anyone. And thank you to everyone who helped us with our fundraiser - it, miraculously, covered the entire ER bill almost to the cent (aside from the return for goodbye).
I don't think I'll be gone forever, but I may need to post this and check out for a bit. Please know that I will absolutely read every comment when I can. My wonderful Mom traveled 3000 miles to be with me when I called because I lost my baby, so I have some happy distraction to ease this a bit (to the degree it can).
We love you all.
He will be missed.
my heart hurts for you and am so sad.. what a precious angel.. you really cared for him so well. its horribly tough.. i am glad your mom is able to be w you. HUGS.. 
please take all the time you need. it's never easy but you did everything you could.
Sending big hugs.
I watched the video as soon as I got home and could feel how much you two meant to each other 
