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cecile & bella

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My sweet Bella is gone. She did not have any strength left, I think recovering from 2 saddle thrombi was just as much as she could do. She was exhausted.
I helped her through the night, she was wheezing, she peed on her blanket, I washed her and kept her dry and warm. The vet came at noon. We were together all morning, just me and her, and I talked to her a lot. We went through the house, she stayed on all the beds, all the sunny spots she loved, until she let me know she wanted to move. Then she was by the heat vent, then her blanket in the corner by the bookcase, where she spent the last few nights. She kept moving, coming back to the kitchen, the living room, and eventually she just stayed here in the kitchen and her breaths were gettimg very slow. At the end she weighed 8 pounds. She was 13 2 years ago, down to 11 willingly (on my side at least), then it was just loss of muscle and the last few days of dehydration.
She went to sleep very peacefully in my arms, with her vet who really liked her. In the sun.
I miss her, she was here all this week but already gone, as my son said, and it is so true.
I feel bad, I should not have waited so long, but she was so strong, I was hoping for a third miracle.
I am so happy that she chose us at the Humane Society, she came to sit in front of us and said hello. Bella was a talker, she had many, many different ways of telling us what she wanted. That day it was "You are my new family, take me home now". So we did. And we had 7 perfect years with the most perfect cat, so full of personnality and so funny. I am amazed by how many of my son's friends, and my friends, some who don't even like cats that much, are telling us they are sad, that they loved her.
I will try to keep coming here, you have been like a family to us for the last 3 years. And maybe I can give back and help, too.
Thank you, thank you so much for all the love over the last few weeks, you cannot imagine how much it helped me. Thank you.
I feel so grateful for this forum. @Bandit's Mom you helped me so much, even when I had no idea what i was doing, I was scared to make mistakes, and you kept telling me what to do over and over and so patiently. Bella lived so well and she was so regulated because of you.
@Wendy&Neko @tiffmaxee @Little Man's mom (GA) @Angela & Cleo @Sienne and Gabby (GA) and many more of you who helped us. Thank you.
@Staci & Ivy @Heike & BInie @bluesunshine @Tim & Pookey @Fistuk & Shelly I love you all, I will keep coming to check on you.
@Diane Tyler's Mom GA your daily messages of love helped me so much.
I am sorry, i know I am forgetting many of you but please know that I read and appreciated every single message that was posted on my threads.
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Cecile, I am so sorry. She was clearly deeply loved by you and everyone in her life… and you gave her a peaceful, loving farewell. The way you took her around to her favorite spots - that was so special. Thank you for letting us be a part of her journey, be kind to yourself.
 
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Oh Cecile, I couldn't even see what I was reading because I was crying so much and still am. You did everything you could for your precious Bella and you have nothing to feel bad about. You gave her the best life she could ever have , the best mom. She sure was a character. I'm going to miss the pics you post of her . Even though I have never met her I loved Bella. I hope Bella is chasing butterflies with Tyler and Perry and they are having a butter party and chasing centipedes.
No more pain sweet girl. You will never be forgotten. Please take care of your self Cecile. Sending you lots of gentle hugs . :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:Love you Bella
 
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((((Cecile))))

I am so sorry, Cecile. I know how painful this is, and my heart is totally broken for you.

Please be kind to yourself though. You have done a phenomenal job taking care of her. So extraordinary, really. Bella, unfortunately, had very difficult medical conditions. You have done everything you could and more.

I find this a bit contradictory, but when they go, they take a piece of you with them. At the same time, they stay with you in your heart forever. Bella is and will always be, with you.

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Cecile, during this difficult time. Sending you hugs. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
(((Cecile))) I am so very sorry. You tried so hard, but Nature always has the last word. You gave her the gift of a peaceful passage, and that is the best thing you could have done.

Thank you for the photos, and for sharing your sweet, beautiful, funny little gourmande with us these past few years. Bella's heaven will be full of pizza, and panettone, and butter, and tasty insects of all kinds. I hope she'll share them with our other precious kitties who have gone ahead.

Hugs to you and your family. I'll be thinking of you. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Oh Cecile, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. The last days must have been so incredibly sad and difficult for you with so many mixed emotions. Don't be hard on you, because you had hope. Bella had this incredible resilience, how could you not have hoped she gets better again. And saying goodbye takes time. For you and for Bella. I'm sure she knew she is safe and loved until her last breath.

Even though I never met Bella, she was very special for me and I was looking forward reading about her every day. She was such a big personality. So social with you and your family, always trying to participate, including your meals. I remember the beautiful picture with your son in front of the vent. She had a wonderful life with you and your family with so much love and fun and safety and all the yummy food she loved so much.

Thank you for the beautiful pictures of Bella. They make my heart melt and they make me cry.

Please be gentle with yourself. I send you lots of love and hugs! ❤️❤️❤️
 
Oh ((((Cecile)))) I am heartbroken for you and your family:(

I was hoping sweet Bella would find that next miracle. She was so resilient and she was such a strong girl. She did everything she could to stay with you. It’s a testament to your love for her.
Even jumping up on your counters so recently to get her favorite bites and licks of her favorite foods.
Thank you for sharing your sweet girl with all of us. We all feel the loss with you. I’m crying just writing to you.
You and Bella have been with me on this journey all along, and I will miss your daily updates and Bella‘s antics, she always made me smile. She always will. She’ll always be in my heart ❤️❤️
You did such an incredible job, taking care of her and she knew how much you loved her.

Sending you lots of love and gentle hugs at this very sad time. Please take care of yourself and I hope to see you here if and when you feel you want to be here. You’re such a valued number of this community.
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Cecile, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. You and sweet Bella did all you could do. You gave her the great gift of a peaceful transition, and now she can hop on all of God’s counters. She will drop by, just to let you know she’s watching—when the butter dish is moved, or the last piece of cheese goes missing, you’ll know Bella is laughing in the stars. She’s pain-free and at peace, I hope soon you are as well. She was a very special cat—we will all miss her deeply.
-Quand tu regarderas le ciel, la nuit, puisque j'habiterai dans l'une d'elles, puisque je rirai dans l'une d'elles, alors ce sera pour toi comme si riaient toutes les étoiles. Tu auras, toi, des étoiles qui savent rire!
—Antoine de Saint-Exupéry​
 
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I'm so sorry, Cecile. It's so painful when they leave us; they make such an indelible impression on our lives and hold a place deep in our hearts. I'm so glad that she let you know that she was ready; and that you were able to ease her on her journey: this is truly one of the greatest gifts you could give her. I know that Bella was precious to you, but she, in turn, was fortunate to have you: you loved her and took such good care of her. My hope is that the sweetest, warmest, funniest memories of Bella flood your thoughts as you go through these coming days.
 
Oh no, I am so so sorry, Cecile. I will always remember your stories of Bella, I love her quite a bit in just a very short time I got to know about her. She’s a special cat, a cat with a ton of personality, and a tough fighter. I hope you are able to find some peace and some rest, I know the past week has been so hard. Big hugs, much love :bighug:
 
:( I'm so sorry. She put up a good fight and you did too :bighug: I think God gives us grief as a reminder of how much we can love. And there was so much love with you two. Will light a candle for your sweet Bella and sending healing prayers your way.
 
You went above and beyond for your baby, Cecile! :bighug: She was sooo very well taken care of and couldn't have asked for a better human.

I'm going to miss seeing your posts with Bella in the profile pic. She was so precious.

Fly high sweet Bella cat_wings>o we will miss you :(
 
I am so very deeply sorry for your loss, Cecile. My heart is breaking for you :(
Please be kind to yourself. You were the best mom to your sweet Bella, and you both had so much love for each other.
Sending you prayers and lots of love and hugs :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
Thank you for sharing, Bella and all the beautiful pictures.
 
My sweet Bella is gone. She did not have any strength left, I think recovering from 2 saddle thrombi was just as much as she could do. She was exhausted.
I helped her through the night, she was wheezing, she peed on her blanket, I washed her and kept her dry and warm. The vet came at noon. We were together all morning, just me and her, and I talked to her a lot. We went through the house, she stayed on all the beds, all the sunny spots she loved, until she let me know she wanted to move. Then she was by the heat vent, then her blanket in the corner by the bookcase, where she spent the last few nights. She kept moving, coming back to the kitchen, the living room, and eventually she just stayed here in the kitchen and her breaths were gettimg very slow. At the end she weighed 8 pounds. She was 13 2 years ago, down to 11 willingly (on my side at least), then it was just loss of muscle and the last few days of dehydration.
She went to sleep very peacefully in my arms, with her vet who really liked her. In the sun.
I miss her, she was here all this week but already gone, as my son said, and it is so true.
I feel bad, I should not have waited so long, but she was so strong, I was hoping for a third miracle.
I am so happy that she chose us at the Humane Society, she came to sit in front of us and said hello. Bella was a talker, she had many, many different ways of telling us what she wanted. That day it was "You are my new family, take me home now". So we did. And we had 7 perfect years with the most perfect cat, so full of personnality and so funny. I am amazed by how many of my son's friends, and my friends, some who don't even like cats that much, are telling us they are sad, that they loved her.
I will try to keep coming here, you have been like a family to us for the last 3 years. And maybe I can give back and help, too.
Thank you, thank you so much for all the love over the last few weeks, you cannot imagine how much it helped me. Thank you.
I feel so grateful for this forum. @Bandit's Mom you helped me so much, even when I had no idea what i was doing, I was scared to make mistakes, and you kept telling me what to do over and over and so patiently. Bella lived so well and she was so regulated because of you.
@Wendy&Neko @tiffmaxee @Little Man's mom (GA) @Angela & Cleo @Sienne and Gabby (GA) and many more of you who helped us. Thank you.
@Staci & Ivy @Heike & BInie @bluesunshine @Tim & Pookey @Fistuk & Shelly I love you all, I will keep coming to check on you.
@Diane Tyler's Mom GA your daily messages of love helped me so much.
I am sorry, i know I am forgetting many of you but please know that I read and appreciated every single message that was posted on my threads.
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I am so sorry for your loss
She was deeply loved and knew it
 
Cecile, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. You and sweet Bella did all you could do. You gave her the great gift of a peaceful transition, and now she can hop on all of God’s counters. She will drop by, just to let you know she’s watching—when the butter dish is moved, or the last piece of cheese goes missing, you’ll know Bella is laughing in the stars. She’s pain-free and at peace, I hope soon you are as well. She was a very special cat—we will all miss her deeply.
-Quand tu regarderas le ciel, la nuit, puisque j'habiterai dans l'une d'elles, puisque je rirai dans l'une d'elles, alors ce sera pour toi comme si riaient toutes les étoiles. Tu auras, toi, des étoiles qui savent rire!
—Antoine de Saint-Exupéry​
Colleen, your quote made me cry, sob, even. I love St-Ex, I am from Lyon like him, he is very important to me, I always loved reading his books. Thank you. I could not see the stars tonight because Minenapolis and the Moon are too bright, but I know she is there.
 
Colleen, your quote made me cry, sob, even. I love St-Ex, I am from Lyon like him, he is very important to me, I always loved reading his books. Thank you. I could not see the stars tonight because Minenapolis and the Moon are too bright, but I know she is there.

I’m sorry Cecile, certainly making you cry more wasn’t the goal—perhaps it’s not the moon or the city lights that block the stars tonight: rather Bella’s star is burning so bright it makes the other stars pale with envy. Like a giant Bella hug though the night for you. I wish gentle sleep under Bella’s light tonight and this week for you.
 
(((((Cecile)))))
I am so very sorry. I can only wish that Bella gave you another miracle but sometimes, our kitties know better than we do that it is their time. She knew you were there to help her cross. Many of our cats will be waiting for her at the Bridge to keep her company until it's time for you to be together again.

Fly free little one and land softly. You are missed.
 
(((((Cecile)))))
I am so very sorry. I can only wish that Bella gave you another miracle but sometimes, our kitties know better than we do that it is their time. She knew you were there to help her cross. Many of our cats will be waiting for her at the Bridge to keep her company until it's time for you to be together again.

Fly free little one and land softly. You are missed.
Thank you, Sienne. I know it was her time, I've been feeling it since she came back January 2nd. When I opened the box of strips I was using when she was sick again, I thought it might be the last one. She gave us a perfect week and I think she did not have any more strength after that. I am glad my daughter was here for part of Bella's last perfect week. Chiara (my daughter) wanted a cat so much and for so long, but we were renting, we kept moving, we were going to France regularly.... and then everything worked. And Bella found us. It is so hard for me and the kids because we love her so much. I feel guilty still, that I did not try enough, did not feed her enough, but I think of all those little signs that she gave me since September, that she was getting closer to the time to leave us.
I was here and I am so glad about that. It was special to hold her and feel her relax, and sleep so peacefully.
 
Cecile, I’m so sorry it was her time. She was so loved and knew it. We never have them long enough. I hope you can take a little comfort knowing that you made the right decision at the right time. Time to take care of yourself now. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
((Cecile and your family). I am so sorry that last miracle did not happen and that it was Bella's time. :bighug::bighug::bighug:. Being in your arms in the sunshine was a comfort to both you and Bella.

Bella (and you) have been such a part of our FDMB family. Her antics regularly gave me smiles. I hope you feel our hugs coming your way.

This will be a hard time - do take care of yourself. More than 4 years of bonding over feline diabetes, leaves lasting memories. You did such a great job with her.

Some things that might give you comfort are some of the poems by Carol Notermann, one of the early FDMB members. https://felinediabetes.com/poetry.htm
 
Cecile, I am so sorry. She was clearly deeply loved by you and everyone in her life… and you gave her a peaceful, loving farewell. The way you took her around to her favorite spots - that was so special. Thank you for letting us be a part of her journey, be kind to yourself.
Thank you, Tim. It is very hard. I see her everywhere, I look for her, I cannot stop thinking about her.
 
Oh Cecile, I couldn't even see what I was reading because I was crying so much and still am. You did everything you could for your precious Bella and you have nothing to feel bad about. You gave her the best life she could ever have , the best mom. She sure was a character. I'm going to miss the pics you post of her . Even though I have never met her I loved Bella. I hope Bella is chasing butterflies with Tyler and Perry and they are having a butter party and chasing centipedes.
No more pain sweet girl. You will never be forgotten. Please take care of your self Cecile. Sending you lots of gentle hugs . :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:Love you Bella
Thank you, Diane. I can post more pics. I took a lot, she was so special and funny. I will never forget her.
This one was the last one I took before she was sick last week. We took my daughter to the airport before feeding her that morning and she was not very happy about that.
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((((Cecile))))

I am so sorry, Cecile. I know how painful this is, and my heart is totally broken for you.

Please be kind to yourself though. You have done a phenomenal job taking care of her. So extraordinary, really. Bella, unfortunately, had very difficult medical conditions. You have done everything you could and more.

I find this a bit contradictory, but when they go, they take a piece of you with them. At the same time, they stay with you in your heart forever. Bella is and will always be, with you.

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Cecile, during this difficult time. Sending you hugs. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
Oh Kit, I know you know, Bella followed Mikan very closely. I hope they are somewhere nice together. I was so sad when Mikan died, and I could not stop thinking that maybe Bella would be next. i think I was having premonitions. She was trying to let me know.
I hope you are doing OK. I am not, yet, but I know it will come eventually.
 
Thank you, Diane. I can post more pics. I took a lot, she was so special and funny. I will never forget her.
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Awe her little paw sock. Her face reminds me of a lion’s face. Big hugs, Cecile
 
(((Cecile))) I am so very sorry. You tried so hard, but Nature always has the last word. You gave her the gift of a peaceful passage, and that is the best thing you could have done.

Thank you for the photos, and for sharing your sweet, beautiful, funny little gourmande with us these past few years. Bella's heaven will be full of pizza, and panettone, and butter, and tasty insects of all kinds. I hope she'll share them with our other precious kitties who have gone ahead.

Hugs to you and your family. I'll be thinking of you. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
Thnak you, Karen. I will keep following Chispa and you. I want to remember my Bella hunting and eating centipedes and jumping to find pizza and butter. I hope those memories come back soon.
 
Thank you, Diane. I can post more pics. I took a lot, she was so special and funny. I will never forget her.
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I love this photo Cecile. She looks like she had something to say to you. Like “don’t go to the airport, stay here”.
She’s such a beautiful girl.
I’m thinking of you and Bella all the time.
I miss your daily Bella stories, Cecile. She was such a funny girl.
Sending you lots of love ❤️❤️
 
Oh Kit, I know you know, Bella followed Mikan very closely. I hope they are somewhere nice together. I was so sad when Mikan died, and I could not stop thinking that maybe Bella would be next. i think I was having premonitions. She was trying to let me know.
I hope you are doing OK. I am not, yet, but I know it will come eventually.
Cecile,
It's just so hard. We want them to be happy and comfortable. We know we did the right thing.
Yet, we miss our babies so so much. But things do get calmed down.
I stopped having the binge sobbing storms that randomly came upon me shortly after Mikan's departure.
It's more like a quiet sea of sadness that ebbs and flows.
I like the idea of Bella and Mikan hanging out together, though. Sharing toys? Trash talking about us?
This is the time you are expending much more physical and mental resources than you know. Please take it easy and be good to yourself. I know, it's hard to do, but we've got to try.
Thinking of you and Bella. Sending you :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Oh Cecile, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. The last days must have been so incredibly sad and difficult for you with so many mixed emotions. Don't be hard on you, because you had hope. Bella had this incredible resilience, how could you not have hoped she gets better again. And saying goodbye takes time. For you and for Bella. I'm sure she knew she is safe and loved until her last breath.

Even though I never met Bella, she was very special for me and I was looking forward reading about her every day. She was such a big personality. So social with you and your family, always trying to participate, including your meals. I remember the beautiful picture with your son in front of the vent. She had a wonderful life with you and your family with so much love and fun and safety and all the yummy food she loved so much.

Thank you for the beautiful pictures of Bella. They make my heart melt and they make me cry.

Please be gentle with yourself. I send you lots of love and hugs! ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you, Heike. She was very special, and always with us. I look for her everywhere. I just made lasagna and it was so hard not to cry, she would have been sitting on the chair by the island, her little head looking at me, asking for cheese. It's my son's birthday, he is 17 today, so I am trying very hard to be happy for him. He's been sending me all the pictures of Bella from his phone, so I will have more to share.
 
Oh ((((Cecile)))) I am heartbroken for you and your family:(

I was hoping sweet Bella would find that next miracle. She was so resilient and she was such a strong girl. She did everything she could to stay with you. It’s a testament to your love for her.
Even jumping up on your counters so recently to get her favorite bites and licks of her favorite foods.
Thank you for sharing your sweet girl with all of us. We all feel the loss with you. I’m crying just writing to you.
You and Bella have been with me on this journey all along, and I will miss your daily updates and Bella‘s antics, she always made me smile. She always will. She’ll always be in my heart ❤️❤️
You did such an incredible job, taking care of her and she knew how much you loved her.

Sending you lots of love and gentle hugs at this very sad time. Please take care of yourself and I hope to see you here if and when you feel you want to be here. You’re such a valued number of this community.
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Thank you, Staci. And thank you so much for all the little words througout the last week, it warmed my heart and gave me so much hope. I miss her so much. I cried a little less today, but I see her everywhere. She was such a huge part of our days.
 
I'm so sorry, Cecile. It's so painful when they leave us; they make such an indelible impression on our lives and hold a place deep in our hearts. I'm so glad that she let you know that she was ready; and that you were able to ease her on her journey: this is truly one of the greatest gifts you could give her. I know that Bella was precious to you, but she, in turn, was fortunate to have you: you loved her and took such good care of her. My hope is that the sweetest, warmest, funniest memories of Bella flood your thoughts as you go through these coming days.
Thank you, Marielle. Yes, I have memories and they make me smile, and then cry bcause she's gone, but I know they will stay with me. She has her spot in my heart and will stay here.
 
Oh no, I am so so sorry, Cecile. I will always remember your stories of Bella, I love her quite a bit in just a very short time I got to know about her. She’s a special cat, a cat with a ton of personality, and a tough fighter. I hope you are able to find some peace and some rest, I know the past week has been so hard. Big hugs, much love :bighug:
Seth, thank you so much, for all your messages and all the love you sent for Bella and me. The last week has been one of the hardest in my life. :bighug:
 
:( I'm so sorry. She put up a good fight and you did too :bighug: I think God gives us grief as a reminder of how much we can love. And there was so much love with you two. Will light a candle for your sweet Bella and sending healing prayers your way.
Thank you so much, Angela. I was trying to explain this to my son, we love and it makes it painful when we have to say goodbye, but it so, so much worth it in the end.
 
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