GA Mikan's departure 12/30

Mikanmama (Mikan GA)

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Mikan crossed the rainbow bridge yesterday at about 6pm MST.

In recent weeks, Mikan exhibited more behaviors indicative of something wrong. Her appetite was very variable - not wanting to eat much or at all at the preshot, only to eat later at +2~+4 like she had been starving. She was still very affectionate, seeking attention and purring when I held her for testing. Then, she went down the hill very rapidly. It was clear to us that something very sinister was underlying all this. The vet thought it may have been renal failure. We suspected a tumor, perhaps metastasizing to her brain. Either way, her decline was very rapid and clearly terminal. We decided to let her go.

We had a vet who specialized in palliative care come to the house to help her through the process. At that point, she was barely responsive. I held her in my arms throughout the process. It was peaceful.

But I am utterly at a loss. My heart is broken into a million pieces.

Mikan has always been a mama's girl. Since her FD diagnosis 2 years ago, we have become even closer. It has been a rough journey for both of us.

I want to thank the forum for helping us manage her FD. I want to express my deep appreciation to the forum's moderators for keeping this place available for us. At the beginning of our FD journey, I was very naive and scared about the whole thing. I would not have gotten through this without @Bandit's Mom gentle guidance. Thank you. And all the experienced members, @Angela & Cleo, @tiffmaxee, @Wendy&Nekom @Bron and Sheba (GA), thank you for sharing your wisdom.

And my friends. Through each other's posts and comments, I feel like you and your kitties are my family. @Staci & Ivy, @Alicia & Kit cat, @Jack & Mopem'sMom, @Fistuk & Shelly, @Karolina KJ & Nestle, @Diane Tyler's Mom GA, @Heather & Shooter, @carfurby (GA), @Karen and Chispa, @Deb and Sylvester, @bluesunshine @Jason - Kona's Dad, thank you for your kindness and support.


I wish all of you and your kitties a healthy and happy new year.

Kit and Mikan forever (02/28/2017-12/29/2024)
 
Oh no (((((Kit)))))). I am so so very sorry. My heart is breaking for you. I know how much you love Mikan and she was your special girl.
I’ve been watching especially the past few days on your spreadsheet and saw her not eating and that had me very worried. :(

I’m sending you all my love and support. I know there’s nothing anyone can say to ease your pain. You did the most kind thing for Mikan in letting her not suffer.

You 2 have been with us the entire journey and we are here to support you at this difficult time.
Sending you a huge hug and all our love. We will forever remember your sweet Mikan
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
 
Oh Kit, I am so very very sorry for the loss of sweet Mikan. It has been a great pleasure reading of your bond and love for one another. You loved her enough to let her go. :bighug::bighug: Fly free sweet Mikan cat_wings>o
 
I’m so very sorry for your loss and the emptiness it can leave in your heart. I’m sure she is watching, and will let you know occasionally as things mysteriously rearrange themselves and socks disappear.
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I believe cats to be spirits come to walk on earth. A cat, I am sure, could walk on a cloud without coming through.
—Jules Verne
 

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Oh I just can't believe it. I am so very, very, sorry for your loss. My heart truly hurts for you and your family. Please know you are all in my thoughts and prayers. There really are no words, but I hope you can take some small comfort from knowing you always did the very best for her, even in the end with the hardest decision. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Kit
My heart just broke into a million pieces for you.
I cannot even imagine the pain you're going through but I hope you find comfort in knowing you did the most selfless act of love.

I loved following your journey over the last year and always looked forward to your posts. Mikan will be missed by many on FDMB and I'll make sure to look for her up in the clouds ❤️

Fly free sweet Mikan and land softly. No more suffering in the kitty paradise.
:rb_icon:cat_wings>o:rb_icon:cat_wings>o
 
Oh Kit, when I saw this post I got sick to my stomach and started crying. I am so so sorry. I have been looking at your spreadsheet often . My heart is just breaking for you. You were the best mom Mikan could ever ask for. You and Mikan were our family .
I hope Mikan is chasing butterflies with my Tyler and Perry and all the other kitties that have crossed the rainbow bridge. Kit please take care of yourself , we all love you . Fly high sweet Mikan you will never be forgotten :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
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I’m so sad to see it was her time. She was so loved and knew it. You gave her that last gift we never want to give and at the right time. Now she will watch over you now. :bighug:cat_wings>o:bighug:
 
Kit, I am just gutted for you. Many of us know the grief of losing a furry soulmate, and there is no way out but through. I'm so sorry.

I hope it helps to know that you did everything for Mikan. You rearranged your whole life to manage her FD, and you did it with good cheer and support for others along the journey. Your kind and thoughtful posts brightened so many days.

Mikan was a very special kitty, and you were a hero to her. I believe she will tell you so when you see her again.

Sending love :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
(((Kit)))) I am so sorry it was Mikan's time to earn her angel wings.:bighug::bighug::bighug:. She knows she was well loved.

Losing an FD kitty is very hard, for us as caregivers too. Take care of yourself.
 
Words can't describe how sorry I am. Losing a fur family member is never easy. They always take a piece of our heart when they leave. I hope you are able to fill that missing piece with all of the happy and loving memories that Mikan left behind. She was a very fortunate kitty to have you as her mom and caretaker.
 
Oh no (((((Kit)))))). I am so so very sorry. My heart is breaking for you. I know how much you love Mikan and she was your special girl.
I’ve been watching especially the past few days on your spreadsheet and saw her not eating and that had me very worried. :(

I’m sending you all my love and support. I know there’s nothing anyone can say to ease your pain. You did the most kind thing for Mikan in letting her not suffer.

You 2 have been with us the entire journey and we are here to support you at this difficult time.
Sending you a huge hug and all our love. We will forever remember your sweet Mikan
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Staci,
This has been very very hard. I know you know how close I was to Mikan. I'm still looking for her in the house - it's driving me crazy. It'll take time, I suppose, to get to the new "normal".
Thank you so much for your kind support and friendship through our FD journey. I'll be checking back to see how Ivy's doing from time to time.
:bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Oh Kit, I am so very very sorry for the loss of sweet Mikan. It has been a great pleasure reading of your bond and love for one another. You loved her enough to let her go. :bighug::bighug: Fly free sweet Mikan cat_wings>o
Angela,
Thank you so much for your kind words. Thanks also for your sharing your knowledge and experiences through our FD journey. You were always so kind and prompt - you helped my ability to care for Mikan so much. Thank you.
Wishing you and Cleo a wonderful new year. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
I’m so very sorry for your loss and the emptiness it can leave in your heart. I’m sure she is watching, and will let you know occasionally as things mysteriously rearrange themselves and socks disappear.
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I believe cats to be spirits come to walk on earth. A cat, I am sure, could walk on a cloud without coming through.
—Jules Verne
Hi Colleen,
Thanks for sharing such a beautiful illustration and quote. I'm sure Mikan's prancing around up there. Made me smile to think about that. Thank you.
Wishing you and Methos a very happy new year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
I'm so very sorry for your incredible loss. May you find some measure of peace and comfort in the happy memories of your beautiful Mikan.
Hi Marielle,
Thank you for your kind words. I was so blessed to have such a loving kitty for 7 years and 10 months. Too short, I know, but it really was a wonderful time together with Mikan.
Wishing you and Jude a wonderful new year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
I'm so sorry. Fly free sweet Mikan. Sending prayers. :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
Hi Carla,
Thank you for your kind words and thank you for always cheering us on during our FD journey.
I am hoping that the pain of losing her will ease up with time and I will be able to focus more on all those good times we had together.
Wishing you and your family a happy and healthy new year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
I am so so sorry, Kit. Mikan was a special cat and you gave her the very very best. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
Hi Seth,
Thank you for your kind words.
Mikan was, indeed, a very special kitty. I spent so much time with her and my daily life was totally wrapped around her care. This transition has been very hard, but I am trying my hardest to focus on good times we had. I miss her but I am grateful that I had the privilege to look after her.
Wishing you and Bell a happy new year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Hi Cecile,
Thanks. This has really been hard - I miss her so much. I still feel her in my hands - countless times I carry her to the testing area, and holding her while testing.
It was a very special bond, and I have to remind myself how fortunate I was to have that.
Wishing you and Bella a wonderful new year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
I imagine. I have tears in my eyes watching Bella now. Lots of hugs and thoughts for you :bighug:
 
Oh I just can't believe it. I am so very, very, sorry for your loss. My heart truly hurts for you and your family. Please know you are all in my thoughts and prayers. There really are no words, but I hope you can take some small comfort from knowing you always did the very best for her, even in the end with the hardest decision. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
Hi Christine,
Thank you for your kind words and also the friendship during our FD journey.
I miss her so much and I have been a useless mess since. I know I have to be strong for the other three kitties - how can these little beasts take up so much space in our hearts? Sneaky things!
It was such a special time and a special bond I shared with my precious Mikan. I consider myself very very fortunate. But Gosh, I miss her.

Wishing you, Jack and the rest of the gang a very happy new year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Kit
My heart just broke into a million pieces for you.
I cannot even imagine the pain you're going through but I hope you find comfort in knowing you did the most selfless act of love.

I loved following your journey over the last year and always looked forward to your posts. Mikan will be missed by many on FDMB and I'll make sure to look for her up in the clouds ❤️

Fly free sweet Mikan and land softly. No more suffering in the kitty paradise.
:rb_icon:cat_wings>o:rb_icon:cat_wings>o

Hi Karolina,
Thank you so much for your kind words.
This has been a very painful transition. I have been just going through the motions - it feels almost as if I am living in an alternative reality. Very strange.
Mikan was the sweetest girl. I miss her so much. But she's beyond pain now and I try taking solace at that.
I am also making a picture book of her. I realize that I have thousands of photos of her. Going through them takes time but looking at her pictures somehow gives me a sense of peace.
I also appreciate your encouragement and support throughout our FD journey.
Wishing you, Nestle and Peanut a very happy New Year,. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Oh Kit, when I saw this post I got sick to my stomach and started crying. I am so so sorry. I have been looking at your spreadsheet often . My heart is just breaking for you. You were the best mom Mikan could ever ask for. You and Mikan were our family .
I hope Mikan is chasing butterflies with my Tyler and Perry and all the other kitties that have crossed the rainbow bridge. Kit please take care of yourself , we all love you . Fly high sweet Mikan you will never be forgotten :bighug::bighug::bighug:
Diane - oh Diane.
This has been so hard. So incredibly painful.
I miss her so much. I'm still constantly looking for her, trying to check on her in her usual hangout places. So silly, but it's automatic. I can't help it.
I'm trying to tell myself that Mikan's beyond pain and discomfort now. She's free. But gosh, it's just so hard.
I'm making a picture book of her. I also ordered a necklace with a little tube thing that I can put her fur in there to wear around. I just have to have something that I can feel she's still with me.
Time will probably ease sadness a bit but I don't think pain will ever go away completely. I guess that's the price we pay for loving someone so much. But it's been my honor to look after my precious Mikan. I was such a lucky kitty mom.

Wishing and your family a wonderful New Year, Diane! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
I’m so sad to see it was her time. She was so loved and knew it. You gave her that last gift we never want to give and at the right time. Now she will watch over you now. :bighug:cat_wings>o:bighug:
Hi Elise,
Thank you for your kind words.
Thanks also for your always timely advice when I needed one.
Our FD journey had a lot of rough patches but made us grow close. Mikan has been and always will be a special one for me.

Wishing you and your family a wonderful New Year. :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Kit, I am just gutted for you. Many of us know the grief of losing a furry soulmate, and there is no way out but through. I'm so sorry.

I hope it helps to know that you did everything for Mikan. You rearranged your whole life to manage her FD, and you did it with good cheer and support for others along the journey. Your kind and thoughtful posts brightened so many days.

Mikan was a very special kitty, and you were a hero to her. I believe she will tell you so when you see her again.

Sending love :bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:
Hi Karen,
Awww, you are so kind. Thank you.
Thank you also for your kind support throughout our FD journey. I love the sense of "we are in this together" on this board.
And it made me a better caretaker for Mikan. Her BGs were never very stable but she lived her life to the fullest. I'm making a picture book of her and looking through all those photos of Mikan doing all kinds of things - making me realize how full of life she has been. Just so short. I miss her dearly and the feeling is almost painful. But I consider myself the luckiest woman - to have had the privilege to care for such a sweet kitty.

Wishing you and sweet Chispa a wonderful New Year! :bighug::bighug:
 
(((Kit)))) I am so sorry it was Mikan's time to earn her angel wings.:bighug::bighug::bighug:. She knows she was well loved.

Losing an FD kitty is very hard, for us as caregivers too. Take care of yourself.
Hi Wendy,
I really want to express my deepest appreciation for your helping us through our FD journey. You have always been so generous with your time and for sharing your experience. Thank you.
I realize that FD strengthens the bond between the kitty and caretaker - the pain of losing her is visceral. My hands want to feel her and my eyes constantly look where she would hang out.
She was a special one.

Wishing you and your family a happy and healthy New Year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Words can't describe how sorry I am. Losing a fur family member is never easy. They always take a piece of our heart when they leave. I hope you are able to fill that missing piece with all of the happy and loving memories that Mikan left behind. She was a very fortunate kitty to have you as her mom and caretaker.
Hi Maddie,
Thank you for your kind words.
You are so right. It feels that a part of me went with Mikan.
Through our FD journey, the bond between Mikan and me got so tight. My daily routine was so wrapped around Mikan's FD needs.
I feel like I don't even know how to live now. I will have to adapt to a new "normal". But I feel very fortunate to have such a sweet precious kitty - we had wonderful 7 years and 10 months. I will surely treasure that.

Wishing you and Kai a wonderful happy New Year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Mikan crossed the rainbow bridge yesterday at about 6pm MST.

In recent weeks, Mikan exhibited more behaviors indicative of something wrong. Her appetite was very variable - not wanting to eat much or at all at the preshot, only to eat later at +2~+4 like she had been starving. She was still very affectionate, seeking attention and purring when I held her for testing. Then, she went down the hill very rapidly. It was clear to us that something very sinister was underlying all this. The vet thought it may have been renal failure. We suspected a tumor, perhaps metastasizing to her brain. Either way, her decline was very rapid and clearly terminal. We decided to let her go.

We had a vet who specialized in palliative care come to the house to help her through the process. At that point, she was barely responsive. I held her in my arms throughout the process. It was peaceful.

But I am utterly at a loss. My heart is broken into a million pieces.

Mikan has always been a mama's girl. Since her FD diagnosis 2 years ago, we have become even closer. It has been a rough journey for both of us.

I want to thank the forum for helping us manage her FD. I want to express my deep appreciation to the forum's moderators for keeping this place available for us. At the beginning of our FD journey, I was very naive and scared about the whole thing. I would not have gotten through this without @Bandit's Mom gentle guidance. Thank you. And all the experienced members, @Angela & Cleo, @tiffmaxee, @Wendy&Nekom @Bron and Sheba (GA), thank you for sharing your wisdom.

And my friends. Through each other's posts and comments, I feel like you and your kitties are my family. @Staci & Ivy, @Alicia & Kit cat, @Jack & Mopem'sMom, @Fistuk & Shelly, @Karolina KJ & Nestle, @Diane Tyler's Mom GA, @Heather & Shooter, @carfurby (GA), @Karen and Chispa, @Deb and Sylvester, @bluesunshine @Jason - Kona's Dad, thank you for your kindness and support.

I'm so very sorry for you loss. Godspeed, Mikan. :bighug::bighug::bighug:


I wish all of you and your kitties a healthy and happy new year.

Kit and Mikan forever (02/28/2017-12/29/2024)
 
Kit I am so very sorry to hear Mikan has gone to the rainbow bridge. I know how heartbroken you must be feeling.
It is devastating to lose a beloved kitty.:bighug::bighug::bighug:
Fly free Mikan :rb_icon:cat_wings>o
Hi Bron,
Thanks for your kind words.
Thank you also for your sharing your expertise on the board. FD is such a difficult chronic condition to manage, and your support and wisdom are a lifeline for many.
Although I miss Mikan so much and I'm devastated by the loss, I consider myself very fortunate to have had such a loving relationship with her.

Wishing you and your family a happy and healthy New Year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
I am deeply sorry, Kit, and send you our condolences.

Gentle journey, sweet Mikan.
Hi Marje,
Thank you for your kind words.
I have always appreciated your willingness to share your expertise and wisdom with many people here on the board.
Thanks also for keeping this forum going. This forum has been a lifeline for me and Mikan. Thank you.

Wishing you and your family a happy and healthy New year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Oh, Kit - I'm so very sorry to hear this! I know how hard this is, and am sending so much love your way. You did so much for Mikan, and I know she will always be with you. ❤️❤️❤️
Hi Alicia,
Thank you for your kind words.
I know you know the pain of this. This is just so hard, isn't it.
I miss her so much, so painfully. But I try to think that she is beyond pain and suffering now.
Maybe Mikan is now playing with Kitcat. Probably trash-talking about us :rolleyes:

Wishing you, Eric and your family a happy New Year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Oh no! Kit!!! I am so broken hearted for you! We all know you loved Mikan so very much and you did everything you could for her. Big big ((hugs)) :rb_icon:cat_wings>o
Hi Heather,
Thank you for your kind words.
Mikan was sweet girl. I was the lucky one to have her.
This has been so hard. I miss her so much.
It feels so devastatingly strange not to keep up with BG testing and insulin shot. But my brain can't comprehend it and still keep track of time - oh +2 I have to test... wait, I don't need to....
I know it'll take time to adjust to it. New normal.

Wishing you and Shooter a wonderful New Year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
Hi Jodey,
Thank you for your kind words.
It has been very hard to cope with the loss.
Mikan was a sweet kitty and I miss her so much.
But she's in a better place now and I treasure the precious time Mikan and I shared.

Wishing you and your family a wonderful New Year! :bighug::bighug::bighug:
 
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