Jdubs
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I dont think I will be so late in the end tonight So I only went 1/4 of an hour later.
I keep dreaming about Mar Lei being sick. I wake up feeling like he is dying, like its a warning sign and I need to prepare, .
I feel so much Grief. Today I am all tears.
He has stopped sleeping on my bed. He always does this when hes not feeling good.
But then in some ways he seems ok.
Maybe it's all muddled I'm sure with everything that is going on in the world. So many people are 'dying suddenly'.
I dont know whether I am catastrophising and actually hes doing ok, or its my instinct that he is not well.
I dont know if I should take him to the vets. He HATES the vets. It stresses him out for weeks, no exaggeration. I don't trust most of what they do in terms of medicines, though I know testing is pretty useful for various physiological markers, (and then I can do my own think treating).
I feel like everyday I am wearing this hundred tonne weight of death around my neck. But i would choose this everyday over him leaving.
I just feel like I am not getting it right.
If I know how long he had it might be easier. I need to earn more money but I dont want his last few weeks to for me to be out the house loads. I'd rather go into more debt and be with him and make it up after that. But if he is going to be here many years yet, I need to get on with things! Its so confusing.
Many people around me think I am absolutely mad (he's just a cat, you are wasting your life etc) but to me hes a soul like any other and as important to me as the humans I loves.......
Do lots of people in this community feel these things?
I dont think I will be so late in the end tonight So I only went 1/4 of an hour later.
I keep dreaming about Mar Lei being sick. I wake up feeling like he is dying, like its a warning sign and I need to prepare, .
I feel so much Grief. Today I am all tears.
He has stopped sleeping on my bed. He always does this when hes not feeling good.
But then in some ways he seems ok.
Maybe it's all muddled I'm sure with everything that is going on in the world. So many people are 'dying suddenly'.
I dont know whether I am catastrophising and actually hes doing ok, or its my instinct that he is not well.
I dont know if I should take him to the vets. He HATES the vets. It stresses him out for weeks, no exaggeration. I don't trust most of what they do in terms of medicines, though I know testing is pretty useful for various physiological markers, (and then I can do my own think treating).
I feel like everyday I am wearing this hundred tonne weight of death around my neck. But i would choose this everyday over him leaving.
I just feel like I am not getting it right.
If I know how long he had it might be easier. I need to earn more money but I dont want his last few weeks to for me to be out the house loads. I'd rather go into more debt and be with him and make it up after that. But if he is going to be here many years yet, I need to get on with things! Its so confusing.
Many people around me think I am absolutely mad (he's just a cat, you are wasting your life etc) but to me hes a soul like any other and as important to me as the humans I loves.......
Do lots of people in this community feel these things?