12/18 Willie PMPS 181, +3.5~80, 4.25~65 One year ago...

Yesterday's Condo

AMPS 218
+3~255
+4~243
+6.5~181

Willie's numbers tonight are a puzzle and a reminder to all of us never to follow-up a suspected fur shot with a second dose. Tonight, I didn't feel the needle go in (I have GOT to stop shooting him while he's eating and just put him in my lap like I used to do!), and when I pushed his fur aside, there was clearly a wet spot that, when sniffed, had that lovely hint of bandaid to it. Clearly a fur shot, right?!? So imagine my surprise at that 80.

One year ago today, Miss Jezebelle went to the bridge. Left to get sugar to make muffins for colleagues and returned to a medical crisis from which she wouldn't recover. It's still hard sometimes... she truly was my feline doppleganger so losing her was like losing a part of myself. I miss her so much today. I have to wonder with Willie's sudden high numbers if he senses that today was the day too? I've kept busy today... from church at 7:30am, some shopping and crafting then a very serene yoga class tonight. I think it all has helped make today a bit more bearable.

Herbie's presence has been a big help for both Willie and I. She reminds me of Miss Belle in so many ways... and I suspect that her speedy acclimation to our little family has so much to do with Miss Belle's influence. There are just little things that she will do that I can't help but think that there's no way a 6 month old kitten would have the instinct... but yet there she is. I know her presence has been so good for Willie... it amuses me that I was so worried for so long about how he might adapt. Then again, maybe I needed to wait so that just the right little someone could find her way to us.

This may sound silly, but I'm so thankful to have come across the urn/statue I ultimately selected when I began looking. There is just something so peaceful about having her watching over us from the mantle like she does... Willie and I often sit on the sofa together with him up behind my head. I have loved feeling like she was right there with us.



So tonight, we are lighting a candle in rememberance of our dear furry friend. I've been doing my best not to cry all day today. So much for that.

Miss Belle, please don't tell Herbie, but you will always, always, always be my bestest girl.

Re: 12/18 Willie PMPS 181, +3~80 One year ago...

Christie--I am feeling the pain you feel tonite & know how much our lives have been enriched by the presences of your Miss Belle, & my boy Copper(GA 7 months now)--I believe she is there with you watching over you...blessing you with her Spirit, knowing she is loved & gave love..
I have Copper's ashes next to me in my bedroom cabinet, a statue of him in the kitchen, & pictures of him--I speak to him everyday, and we do know he is still with us--as Miss Jezebel is with you.
We hear his nails on the tile sometimes, get a feather from him every month or so, see something whisk by, that is just like a moving shadow--Dont be sad, rejoice that you had this wonderful baby with you here, to fill your life & the lives of their siblings so much..
Know how you feel, sending a Healing Hug to you today..Love never dies, it goes on & on..

Re: 12/18 Willie PMPS 181, +3~80 One year ago...

(((((christie)))) miss belle must've been a very special kitter! thank you for sharing her story tonight. sounds like she is right there with you!

Re: 12/18 Willie PMPS 181, +3~80 One year ago...

Christie, Your cherished memories of Miss Belle remind us how much our kitties are a part of us. Belle will never be far away. She certainly sent Herbie to you. Willie knows.
Enjoy your evening with Willie and Herbie and Miss Belle, in remembrance.

Many hugs to you all,

Ella & Rusty

Re: 12/18 Willie PMPS 181, +3~80 One year ago...

((((Christie))))

You do know that when they are at the Bridge, our companions are never far. They are always in our hearts and in our mind's eye. That much love is never gone, it's only waiting.

(((Christie)))): I can't believe it has been a year. I remember those posts and my anguish for you even barely knowing you. Who knows why these things happen and so suddenly? I know your heart has ached for her the last year even
through all your smiles and optimism. And you know what....she is there...she is always there for you. And maybe she is in Herbie. Just enough to make you smile but not so much that you don't see "Herbie" for her own sweet self.

Here is a poem by ee cummings. I hope it will bring you comfort:

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear:
And whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
And it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)


Sending you love and hugs.

Hey Christie... What a wonderful post, and remembrance for your girl. I very much like what Sienne wrote - it is how I feel about all that have crossed my doorstep, only to leave sooner than I had hoped. But they always remain in our hearts and out minds eye, never far away... she certainly did send Herbie... she knows, Willie knows...

what a lovely picture, and a lovely remembrance of Miss Jezebelle...

We miss them so much, don't we? Especially that ONE...the one that takes our heart above all others.
I know that Miss belle was such a one for you.

Thinking of you today...